I just wanted to take a moment to give whomever may read this some encourgement. For whatever reason, I've spent the past two months spirling further and further down into a dark abyss from which I thought I would never return. It started when I couldn't sleep on a vacation I took. I spent two days without sleeping before taking some sleeping pills. I spent the next 2 months on some form of prescribed sleeping pills (Ambien mostly) that masked my problems and made me feel even worse. Because I couldn't sleep and had to take pills, which I hated to do, I developed severe anxiety. I was afraid to go to bed because I knew I couldn't sleep without pills, which would make me feel bad the rest of the day. It felt like everything was being taken away from me. I have a normal family life with normal issues. I couldn't understand why I couldn't get my head out of my ass (excuse my french). I kept thinking how could I live like this. Nothing like this had ever happened to me before. I was a zombie and lost in my head, obsessing about what was happening to me. Even so, that was still a part of me that knew I had to hold on. I had to have faith even though I felt like everything was being taken away from me. I was raised a Christian but I lost my way in my adulthood. I started praying and praying and praying. I finally saw a psychiatrist and he prescribed something different but I was too afraid to take them. However, the Ambien ran out and I had to do something. I prayed that night and believed that God would help me come back. It wasn't the best night's sleep but I did sleep. Of course the pills I was prescribed help, but they weren't sleeping pills and I felt reborn the next morning like I walked out from under the dark clouds that were hovering over me. For the past week, each day has gotten better and better. I truly believe that God doesn't give us more than we can handle. There were lessons for me to learn. I just want to say you have to hold on and have faith. You can never lose your hope and faith that things will get better. Hold on to those that matter in your life and sometimes you have to take a chance that things are going to work out in the end. Some of you may laugh this off and that's your right as a human being, but I just wanted to write this on the chance that it may touch one person.
May God bless you all with the strength to prevail.