Wow $5 a packet, there around $10-$15 in aus, but i roll my own which is $22 for 50gm packet and lasts a week.
I would'nt be too hard on yourself for smoking again, we all have setbacks and do things we dont want to do, and it may be some anxiety as well as the stress of things at the moment that is causing you to want to smoke to take the edge off.
Even though smoking does increase levels of anxiety and stress, i know i do feel better during stressful periods after having a "ciggi".
Perhaps there is something else you can do to relive the stress/anxiety?. That way you dont have to beat yourself up about doing something you dont ereally want to do...
Hope that helps..
Hey Tammy, I am going through something similar, not cigarettes, but something. ( i dont believe it would be appropriate to say what exactly). But, I know what you mean. I feel the same way. I wonder how I can hate doing something yet I let myself do it anyways. Its like I am 2 people and one is going against the other no matter how hard I try not to.
But, kind of like liquid said, maybe try something to get away from it. For example, my anxiety and stuff gets high, so I paint. My mom asked me, when I showed her my paintings, where I got so many great ideas from. I said, "They aren't ideas....they are feelings."
I don't paint because its fun or whatever, I paint because it is the only way I know how to get my feelings out of my head. I am not a talker. I hate talking, and it is hard for me to talk openly, so I find painting helps express my feelings without words. Although, the people who have seen my paintings just say how awesome they are and how talented I am. But, they totally miss the point. I just paint. I get a feeling and paint it. It works though. And its productive! I take (bad) feelings out of my head, paint them, and everyone enjoys looking at them! Imagine that!
But, what I'm saying is, maybe there is something that can help you like painting helps me. Do something that gets your mind away, that can be productive! Try something new! That helps me, not sure if it would help a smoker, but I have a problem as well, I guess you could say its like an addiction, but it has the same concept so maybe it will work for you too. If not, there are tons of things you can try.
Congrats on quitting though! Thats really great! Just remember everyone slips up sometimes. But, you are strong and if you can do it once, you can do it twice! I am really glad though that you know it is something you dont want to do and you are trying so hard to quit.
Wishing you only the best...........Tennis.......(Disclaimer: Not sure any of my advice is relevant or if it will work for you! )
I am just like you said Tammy. Not much of a talker but a HUGE thinker. I do believe that is my part of my problem. Thinking makes me worry and get nervous and stuff, but I feel like I have to do it. I think about everything. All the time. I notice a lot that others dont. And I think I see things from different views because I think so much about them. I even have weird dreams. I dream alot about school and stuff happening that I have thought about before or stuff happens that I never thought would happen. Its strange because it feels real until I wake up then I usually spend the entire day wondering about it. But, I think thinking is a huge problem for me. But, as my counselor pointed out, it could be a sign of intelligence. Maybe she just said that to make me feel better, but after thoroughly thinking about it I realized that it could be true. So, I tell myself that!
Anyways, take care!.......Tennis.......
Wow $15 for a carton of cigs!!!! its around $60-$70 for a carton here in Aus and its only going to become more expensive as we just had yet another 0.25percent interest rise yesterday ( the 7th increase in 2 years.. )....
I think i may have to move to the USA... lol
And Tammy you didnt fail, you never fail, you just have setbacks, i know it isnt easy but it will get easier, even though you get more frustrated for smoking, if you look at it as a minor setback maybe you wont feel so frustrated, this may not help but just a suggestion.
i know it helps me when i have little setbacks, and as you know you have everyones support here..