This might not be the right place to put this, but I'm starting to freak out.
My BFF is flying in tonight, originally to hang with another one of our friends b/c her mother was dying. Well, the friends mother died on Monday. The family is flying out of LA to another state for the funeral tomorrow. This means, I have to pick up my friend from the airport (I hate LAX), spend half of tonight grieving with them, go to work in the morning and I'm already feeling guilty b/c my BFF will be home alone. She was supposed to stay with S until Saturday afternoon but now is staying with me until Sunday. I'm freaking out.
These are the thoughts that are running through my head.
I need to go to the grocery store.
What time will I get to bed tonight.
What is she going to do tomorrow (hopefully rest)
I need to get to the grocery store.
What can I do to entertain her.
Where are we going to go and what am I going to wear.
I hate going out but she loves it.
What are we going to eat, I have no pots and pans.
What can we do Saturday afternoon.
Geez I don't want to see S b/c then I'll have to cry and what if I can't cry.
Of course this goes on and on and over and over in my head since yesterday.
Why can I not be happy she's coming in and have fun? Fun, what's that? Do I even know how to have fun anymore?
She's so laid back that if I said I didn't want to go out, she'd be cool with that. But seriously, she's coming to LA and not going out.
What can I do to calm myself down? I have to pick her up tonight, go to the store beforehand, play with the dog, clean, and oh yeah...eat. In which I hate to eat.
I'm starving right now but am trying to ignore it, annnnd I'm sleeeeeepy. I HATE the way I feel.