Okay, so here is the deal.
I have a lot going on in my life right now, which may be a contributing factor, but since I am on medication, I would think that my symptoms wouldn't be so bad!!
My mom's sister, who was only 57, and also my closest aunt (like my 2nd mom) suddenly passed away on October 31. I took that very hard and am constantly thinking about her passing away. She wasn't sick and was always active and doing everything and died suddenly of a heart attack! I dealt with the funeral viewings and the funeral itself the best I could. I wrote a poem that I read at the funeral home on the day of her service, made 2 huge collages of pictures of her throughout her life and also did a reading at the church service.
On top of my aunt passing away, we had sold our house prior to that and are closing on it on November 15. We bought a new house but don't know when we will be closing on it yet so for the meantime, me, my husband, and my 2 kids (ages 6 and 7 months) are staying at my parents house.
I know these are big stress factors and with us people who suffer with anxiety, I think these things hit us the hardest. I for one personally HATE change.
Okay, so I am on 60 mg of Cymbalta, and .5 mg Xanax 2x/day...the Cymbalta doesn't seem to be helping with my depression (and I have been on the Cymbalta for at least 5 weeks now - switched to it from Effexor XR), and from what I understand, it is stronger than the Effexor XR even at this dose? The Xanax doesn't even calm me down anymore...I still shake and have panic attacks. I am extremely tired all the time and don't want to do anything at all. I take care of my kids but that is about all I feel like doing. And when my baby naps, all I want to do is sleep too because I don't feel like doing anything else like cleaning, or doing laundry, etc...you know, the everyday household chores. My mind is constantly racing and I feel like I did when I started having panic attacks over 10 years ago. Why is it that when we feel good, we forget how bad the panic attacks and depression really are!?
I apologize for the post being so long, but I just wanted to be thorough so if you are still reading, thank you - and what do you think I should do? Call my Dr. and see if he can get me in or let it run its course? I feel like such a hypochondriac anymore!
I am so glad you guys are here on this forum, I would be lost without you!!!!
Love to you all!
I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much.
Dx: Anxiety, Depression
RX: Cymbalta 60 mg, Xanax .5 mg