I’ve posted some of this on the BP forum, as most of my problems seem to revolve around the meds. I’m going to see the psychiatrist tomorrow and either have the dose increased or change the med entirely - I’m not sure that the Lamictal is what I should be on because it may cause cycling and I can’t keep going through this. When not a raving lunatic, I’m angry, depressed, crying, or some of each all at once. I’m cycling like this throughout each day - not every few days, I can’t stand this!
I also want to address the dose of the Ativan and see if that should be increased too. My anxiety is so high right now, I can barely get through the day without having an attack. I was supposed to see my therapist yesterday afternoon and when my husband got home to pick me up, I just lost control, panicked, and couldn’t get out of the house. I’m feeling like I’m slipping backwards instead of getting better. I’m having a harder and harder time leaving the house again and if I do leave, it can only be for a short time or the anxiety kicks into high gear.
I’m trying to keep myself busy and occupied, but I’m having a hard time concentrating on anything and my energy level sucks. I’m trying so hard to do what I should be doing and it just isn’t working. So what’s the point? What’s the point of being on meds if they aren't going to work? I know that it very often takes many tries to get the right med or combo of meds. So I'm trying to be patient with all of this, but I hate the way I feel during this process!
Thanks for letting me vent.
A slip of the foot you may soon recover,
but a slip of the tongue you may never get over.
Gentle Hugs to you sweetie. I so understand exactly what your saying. I know you want to get better and with all the meds out there and the advertising of great promises for feeling better it is disappointing to not see change.
To feel you are not making progress just makes you more anxious and it takes so much energy to keep going.
I know you just want to feel good and not bounce around like a ball.
I am so sorry you are going through this...coming here and talking about this as well as sharing it with others is the best thing to do.
I am seeing my Pdoc on Friday for the same reason, I do not feel the meds are holding or have they ever been that great. I am ready to go back to my old ones.
"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.”
Agoraphobia, Barrett's Esophagus, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Fibromyalgia, Mitral Valve Prolapse, Panic/Anxiety Disorders, Probable Narcolepsy, PTSD, Restless Leg Syndrome, Severe Acid Reflux, Sleep Apnea, Social Anxiety
Meds: Ambien CR, Ativan, Celexa, Flexeril, Lamictal, Neurontin, Nexium, Requip, Ritalin ER
Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 11/15/2007 8:44:38 AM (GMT-7)
Holy Cow.................we are all having a cow.
Lyn, I am sorry your in a bad way and you know if I could I would fly to your side and you could yell all you want. I would leave the egg shells in MN. Besides I probably could not get them past customs.
You get your butt into that Doc, you need an oil change Big Sis and the sooner the better. You have plenty to be upset about and we all know it does not always work to just tell our brains to "knock it off"
I have Pdoc appointment tomorrow for meds..........we will be having a talk for sure.
So know I am here and love ya bunches. You are the best and it is time for us to give to you.
Believe that you will be ok, there is power in believing in yourself.
Gentle Hugs to you always. Post when you can. I will be watching for you post.
Hi all - again,
I went to the pdoc today and we've made some changes - as I expected would happen. The Lamictal is being increased to 150mg this and then up to 200mg the week after. He's taken me off the Celexa and putting me on Abilify. He thinks the Celexa may be causing some of the problems along with the fact that I'm not at a therapeutic dose on the Lamictal . The Ritalin and the Ativan are remaining the same. He wants to see me again in a month to see how things are going and we'll go from there. He wants me to stick with the Lamictal a little longer to see how I am at a higher dose.
Thank you all for your support and help through this; I sure hope these changes will help - we'll see.
I am right here supporting the changes in your meds and I hope this cocktail is the one that works for you.
You deserve some happiness and peace . Gentle Hugs my friend.
Post Edited (stkitt) : 11/19/2007 8:08:42 AM (GMT-7)
Meds: Abilify, Ambien CR, Ativan, Flexeril, Lamictal, Neurontin, Nexium, Requip, Ritalin ER
I hope the med change is going smooth or at least the bumps are not huge.
I am thinking of you and hoping this week is a good one for you.