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wen4003
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   Posted 11/14/2007 12:41 PM (GMT -7)   

I’ve posted some of this on the BP forum, as most of my problems seem to revolve around the meds.  I’m going to see the psychiatrist tomorrow and either have the dose increased or change the med entirely - I’m not sure that the Lamictal is what I should be on because it may cause cycling and I can’t keep going through this.  When not a raving lunatic, I’m angry, depressed, crying, or some of each all at once.  I’m cycling like this throughout each day - not every few days, I can’t stand this!

 

I also want to address the dose of the Ativan and see if that should be increased too.  My anxiety is so high right now, I can barely get through the day without having an attack.  I was supposed to see my therapist yesterday afternoon and when my husband got home to pick me up, I just lost control, panicked, and couldn’t get out of the house.  I’m feeling like I’m slipping backwards instead of getting better.  I’m having a harder and harder time leaving the house again and if I do leave, it can only be for a short time or the anxiety kicks into high gear. 

 

I’m trying to keep myself busy and occupied, but I’m having a hard time concentrating on anything and my energy level sucks.  I’m trying so hard to do what I should be doing and it just isn’t working.  So what’s the point?  What’s the point of being on meds if they aren't going to work?  I know that it very often takes many tries to get the right med or combo of meds.  So I'm trying to be patient with all of this, but I hate the way I feel during this process!

 

Thanks for letting me vent.

 

Wen


Agoraphobia, Barrett's Esophagus, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Fibromyalgia, Mitral Valve Prolapse, Panic/Anxiety Disorders, Probable Narcolepsy, Restless Leg Syndrome, Severe Acid Reflux, Sleep Apnea, Social Anxiety and PTSD
 
Meds: Ambien CR, Ativan, Celexa, Flexeril, Lamictal, Neurontin, Nexium, Requip, Ritalin ER
 

A slip of the foot you may soon recover,

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hopeisreal
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   Posted 11/14/2007 1:42 PM (GMT -7)   
Wen----I'm just curious--how long have you and your doctor been trying to find the right medication for you? I am just asking b/c I hear the same thing about trying to find the right combo of meds----and am just curious how long it takes (I know--it varies by individual)......

I am sorry you are feeling bad----I know it's hard to feel like anything works when you feel bad! YOu can vent anytime-----I do that myself---and that's what the MB is for, right?

Laurel

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   Posted 11/14/2007 8:41 PM (GMT -7)   

Hey Wen

Gentle Hugs to you sweetie.  I so understand exactly what your saying.  I know you want to get better and with all the meds out there and the advertising of great promises for feeling better it is disappointing to not see change.

To feel you are not making progress just makes you more anxious and it takes so much energy to keep going.

I know you just want to feel good and not bounce around like a ball.

I am so sorry you are going through this...coming here and talking about this as well as sharing it with others is the best thing to do.

I am seeing my Pdoc on Friday for the same reason, I do not feel the meds are holding or have they ever been that great.  I am ready to go back to my old ones.

"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words.

Take care my friend and know you are loved here.
 
Hugs,
Kitt
 
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wen4003
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   Posted 11/15/2007 8:21 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Hope,
 
We have been trying since July - I know it hasn't been very long, but this emotional roller coaster is getting the better of me.  It's got to stop, I just can't function this way - it's a complete disruption in my entire life.  It really does vary from person to person as to how long it takes to get the right combo of meds.  Some are able to get it fairly quickly, but I think most have to try over and over. 
 
Yes, I will probably keep venting until I feel better because this is just nuts.
 
Kitt,
 
You are so right, my energy level is pretty low - I'm just trying so hard to keep it together and sometimes I just can't.  Bouncing like a ball - I like that because it really describes what's going on and how I feel.
 
But I'm glad that I'm seeing my pdoc today to address all of this.  If the Lamictal is going to make me cycle like this, then I don't want to be on it and I want to try something else.
 
Thank you both for your support and I will continue posting and will let you know tonight what happens at the pdoc appointment.
 
Hugs to both of you,
Wen
 
 

Agoraphobia, Barrett's Esophagus, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Fibromyalgia, Mitral Valve Prolapse, Panic/Anxiety Disorders, Probable Narcolepsy, PTSD, Restless Leg Syndrome, Severe Acid Reflux, Sleep Apnea, Social Anxiety

 

Meds: Ambien CR, Ativan, Celexa, Flexeril, Lamictal, Neurontin, Nexium, Requip, Ritalin ER

 

A slip of the foot you may soon recover,

but a slip of the tongue you may never get over.

Benjamin Franklin

 


Howlyncat
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   Posted 11/15/2007 8:41 AM (GMT -7)   
Wen
We seem to be on this dang rollercoaster together
I have been a raving lunatic 2 days ago screaming for no reason other than being broke out and sick and tired of being sick ....family crud again and being taken advantage of ya know
I was off the valiums and ativan for so long BUT not anymore ....
ALL I did for the last 23 hrs was sleep I feel totally useless and so down the last few days it is so sickening........I have still a headache from Hades ( prolly from all the screaming) ppl are walking around me on eggshells and I FEEL bad .......
I am hoping I can also get into my doc asap to find out what is going on with me I know I have a new med regime as well for other issues BUT this cannot be all from that ...........
SORRY ...........Thanks for letting me vent .....

NOW when you get back from your doc you can let us know what is going on with you ......I am so sorry you are going thru all of this I really am
I will check in on ya later and see what is up k......I am off to see if fresh air will help ...... 

Luvs
LYN....(((((((((( huggles)))))))))))


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Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 11/15/2007 8:44:38 AM (GMT-7)


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   Posted 11/15/2007 8:43 AM (GMT -7)   
I have had a similar experience. I am now on Lexapro, Celexa and valium for GAD. I found the Lexapro makes me tired so I worked out alower does with Celxa covers more seratonins and it seems to be working so far. Don't give up & keep trying ths combos. I understand combos are the new treatment rather than a single drug & unforunately it takes time for them to kick in. Lot of hugs. You will get there. I'd focus on the anxiety now & try to get that under control ASAP - then the longer term meds.

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   Posted 11/15/2007 8:46 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks for the input Cary.........

Glad you found us here ........LYN
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wen4003
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   Posted 11/15/2007 8:57 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks for your input Cary, I appreciate it.
 
Lyn,
 
I'm sorry to hear that you are going through such a bad time too.  It really sucks and I just wish this would all go away for all of us.  Ihope you get into see your pdoc soon and see what can be done.  You can vent any time you want to.
 
Wish I could get outside - I'm having a hard time with that too of course; but it's pouring any way, so I'm not going out.
 
Good luck to all of us and I'll check in again tonight.
 
(((((Hugs to all)))))
 
Wen

Agoraphobia, Barrett's Esophagus, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Fibromyalgia, Mitral Valve Prolapse, Panic/Anxiety Disorders, Probable Narcolepsy, PTSD, Restless Leg Syndrome, Severe Acid Reflux, Sleep Apnea, Social Anxiety

 

Meds: Ambien CR, Ativan, Celexa, Flexeril, Lamictal, Neurontin, Nexium, Requip, Ritalin ER

 

A slip of the foot you may soon recover,

but a slip of the tongue you may never get over.

Benjamin Franklin

 


stkitt
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   Posted 11/15/2007 10:45 AM (GMT -7)   

Holy Cow.................we are all having a cow.

Lyn, I am sorry your in a bad way and you know if I could I would fly to your side and you could yell all you want.  I would leave the egg shells in MN.  Besides I probably could not get them past customs.

You get your butt into that Doc, you need an oil change Big Sis and the sooner the better.  You have plenty to be upset about and we all know it does not always work to just tell our brains to "knock it off"

I have Pdoc appointment tomorrow for meds..........we will be having a talk for sure.

So know I am here and love ya bunches.  You are the best and it is time for us to give to you.

Luvs ya

Lil Sis

Wen

Believe that you will be ok, there  is power in believing in yourself.

Gentle Hugs to you always.  Post when you can.  I will be watching for you post.

Hugs  yeah   yeah   yeah  

Kitt

 


 
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   Posted 11/15/2007 11:46 AM (GMT -7)   
Wen---I know how you feel with the trying different meds. I have tried Celexa and Lexapro in May/June--but, I just started taking them---and had a really bad reaction. I do take Klonopin as needed now---but, Monday Iwent to see Pdoc (primary doc)---and he wants to try me on Effexor---which I am afraid to take--b/c I had a bad reaction on two meds that are supposed to have the LEAST side effects-----I don't know what to expect with this stuff!

Cyber hugs to ya'-------

wen4003
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   Posted 11/15/2007 5:49 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi all - again,

I went to the pdoc today and we've made some changes - as I expected would happen.  The Lamictal is being increased to 150mg this and then up to 200mg the week after.  He's taken me off the Celexa and putting me on Abilify.  He thinks the Celexa may be causing some of the problems along with the fact that I'm not at a therapeutic dose on the Lamictal . The Ritalin and the Ativan are remaining the same.  He wants to see me again in a month to see how things are going and we'll go from there.  He wants me to stick with the Lamictal a little longer to see how I am at a higher dose.

Thank you all for your support and help through this; I sure hope these changes will help - we'll see.

Take care,

Wen


Agoraphobia, Barrett's Esophagus, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Fibromyalgia, Mitral Valve Prolapse, Panic/Anxiety Disorders, Probable Narcolepsy, PTSD, Restless Leg Syndrome, Severe Acid Reflux, Sleep Apnea, Social Anxiety

 

Meds: Ambien CR, Ativan, Celexa, Flexeril, Lamictal, Neurontin, Nexium, Requip, Ritalin ER

 

A slip of the foot you may soon recover,

but a slip of the tongue you may never get over.

Benjamin Franklin

 


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   Posted 11/15/2007 8:01 PM (GMT -7)   

Dear Wen,

I am right here supporting the changes in your meds and I hope this cocktail is the one that works for you.

You deserve some happiness and peace yeah .  Gentle Hugs my friend.

Kitt


 
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Post Edited (stkitt) : 11/19/2007 8:08:42 AM (GMT-7)


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   Posted 11/17/2007 6:56 AM (GMT -7)   
Wen
How are you making out .......I hope better...I have no tears left ya know .......that dang black hole is right here holding me in its grip like a vise BUT like lil sis said we will get thru it ...have before and will again

My love to all and thanks for being here and understanding........

I wish I could be of more help the last couple of days but ...........I am sorry

God Bless
Loves
Big sis
Lyn
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wen4003
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   Posted 11/17/2007 9:04 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Lyn,
 
Please don't be sorry, you are going thru a lot too.  I ws able to make to the psychiatrist appt on Thursday and we have made some changes.  I'm off the Celexa and on Abilify, and he's increased the Lamictal.  Hopefully this will all work and stop this madness for me.
 
In the meantime, I wish I could do more for you to make you feel better.  Have you called your pdoc?  Do you have an appt scheduled?  If not, it sounds like that's what you need to do.  As you have said to me before be strong, you will get thru it.
 
Luvs and some gentle ((((((((((Hugs)))))))))),
 
Wen

Agoraphobia, Barrett's Esophagus, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Fibromyalgia, Mitral Valve Prolapse, Panic/Anxiety Disorders, Probable Narcolepsy, PTSD, Restless Leg Syndrome, Severe Acid Reflux, Sleep Apnea, Social Anxiety

Meds: Abilify, Ambien CR, Ativan, Flexeril, Lamictal, Neurontin, Nexium, Requip, Ritalin ER

 

A slip of the foot you may soon recover,

but a slip of the tongue you may never get over.

Benjamin Franklin

 


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   Posted 11/19/2007 7:55 AM (GMT -7)   
THanks hun
I am working thru it ..surely I am .......
Was finally up and about yesterday for a bit took a trip back to Bothwell ( place moved from) and now am feeling a bit better...Very emotional as that is where Caits whole life was in that lil town .lol......so far and we both had some tears so I guess its not all hopeless eh

A lil down today would have been Moms Birthday and I really do miss the wonderful times we had .......
I go see my doc tomorrow ........am broke out in sores and chest is heavy again so we shall see whats up ......

Hoping you are doing better my friend and THANKS for all your love and concern it means so much to me ......

Luvs
LYN
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   Posted 11/19/2007 8:11 AM (GMT -7)   

Dear Wen

Good MOrning,

I hope the med change is going smooth or at least the bumps are not huge.

I am thinking of you and hoping this week is a good one for you. yeah

Gentle Hugs

Kitt


 
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   Posted 11/19/2007 8:31 AM (GMT -7)   
Lyn,
 
I am happy to hear that you are doing better, even if it's just a little bit.  Going back to one's roots or where your children grew up can be a very emotional thing.  I did that a few years ag, and much to my surprise, found that the house had been turned into a fire training building for the local fireman.  So buy the time, I got there the house was gone and the next door neighbors had purchased the land.  In many ways, I am glad it's - there are many, many bad memories.
 
The best thing for you to do in regards to your Mom is to remember all the good times you together.  You probably have a photo album/pics of her, you, family, etc.  Maybe you can look at those and to help put a little smile on your face as you look at them and feel the love that you shared with her.  Just a suggestion.
 
I am also glad to hear that you are going to see your pdoc - hopefully you all can figure out what is going on and try to fix it.
 
Lots of very, very gentle (((((HUGS))))) for you - I don't want to hurt your sores
 
Luvs,
Wen
 
Kitt,
 
So far, so good - I can't believe that the meds would be working that quickly, but I do feel quite a bit better.  I am energetic and I am actually going thru a ton of paperwork that I have been neglecting.  I've been at it almost an hour and a half, but I'm almost done.  Then it's vacumming, working on the kids' computer to finish getting things set up - yesterday we were busy getting the kids computer up and running and wired into the network (my son Ryan is a computer geek -LOL, so he knows how to do that stuff).  Now I have to finish the stuff that that I can do, and then some sewing.  Already turning out to be a very busy day!!
 
How are you feeling?  What happened at your pdoc appointment last week?  Were there any changes made?
 
Thank you so much for inquiring how I'm doing.  I just so love this family.  Although I haven't done much posting in response to others who have posted.  Up until yesterday, I haven't really felt up to it. So later today or tomorrow I will start replying to other posts to see if I can help in any way.
 
Soft Bear (((((Hugs))))) for you
 
Luvs,
Wen

Agoraphobia, Barrett's Esophagus, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Fibromyalgia, Mitral Valve Prolapse, Panic/Anxiety Disorders, Probable Narcolepsy, PTSD, Restless Leg Syndrome, Severe Acid Reflux, Sleep Apnea, Social Anxiety

Meds: Abilify, Ambien CR, Ativan, Flexeril, Lamictal, Neurontin, Nexium, Requip, Ritalin ER

 

A slip of the foot you may soon recover,

but a slip of the tongue you may never get over.

Benjamin Franklin

 


Howlyncat
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   Posted 11/19/2007 9:04 AM (GMT -7)   
Wen
I have pics of Mom all over the house and I need only to look in the mirror .........we look like we were sisters almost twins .........alot of great memories in those pics and yes I cherish each one ..........I have a " family wall of pics " going up the upper stairway and I am always drwn to them so many I have loved and lost yet I do have the pics n the memories ........

Am hoping this med change or regime will work for you and that you will be up and at it again ....back to fighting the fight .........along side one another we all need the support and luv for sure and so I am here ......
Thanks for being here.......Luvs LYN



LIl sis

You are great and I luvs ya ,but you know that and THANKS
Take care and will email you soon k ......luvs Big sis
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