anxiety, panic attacks

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iceman69
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Date Joined Nov 2007
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   Posted 11/16/2007 10:26 AM (GMT -7)   
 I have never been in a chat room. is anyone on line that can help me out.

iceman69
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Date Joined Nov 2007
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   Posted 11/16/2007 11:02 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi. I am holding on to so much baggage, I could really use some help. I was born July 6, 1969. I have a sister who is a year older than I, and a brother who is roughly 4-5 years older than I. We were all taken from our mother when I was approximately 18 months old. My sister and I were in approximately 10-12 family's before I was six. The courts would not seperate my sister and I. My sister and I were passed around for sex at many of thes homes. When I was six and she was seven, we were adopted by someone who did not want a boy but only a girl. Iwas locked in my room for three years. I was beat by my adoptive mother every day. She molested me, made me do things to her. She broke my arm with a bat. She put me through hell. It got to the point where they asked my sister if she wanted to leave or if I should go. My sister said I should go. I went to a maximum security center for 6-9 months. Guards with rifles. Getting in formation for chow. Bars on the windows. You would not believe some of the thigs I saw there. They passed the law and I then went to a group home till I was 18. While in the group home, they asked me if I wanted to go to another family. I said yes. I was there for three years and was raped by someone in my church.I went back to the group home. I stayed there till I was able to go into the service. The person that took me to court every six months for ten years became my legal gaurdian. I went into the Army for 11 months- honorable discharge. (mental discharge) Nothing in my life is working out. Right now I'm trying to get medicaid and disability. I,m very reluctant on the out come. I cant work any more. I have never married. I do not have any children. I just got out of a relationship. My girlfriend passed away from breast cancer. I tried to do the best I could to be there for her, but I know now that with all the problems in my own life, the relationship was not beneficial for either of us. I am scared of people. I am very tired in my life. I can't wake up from my past. I am a good person. I have been a chef/resteraunt manager for 25 years and a roofer for 7. I gave it a shot in the military. I am having a very hard time asking the people where I live for help because they are the ones who put me through what I have been through. I am not clinically diagnosed with anything in particular, but know that I have a lot of problems. The people that I am asking for help are laughing at me. I know this. To them my life is a joke. I want answers for my life. I want restitution for my life. I need help. I need peace of mind. I did not ask for any of this.Why did they do this to me. To my mother. (who had a nervous break down). To my family.

stkitt
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   Posted 11/16/2007 11:43 AM (GMT -7)   

Dear Iceman,

This is Kitt. I can only guess  but from your history I feel you should have had some kind of counseling.  You obviously have serious issues  and I believe the best thing for you to do is, please, see your physician and get a psychiatrist to work with you.

You have so much history of abuse which alone makes be suspect you have huge issues with post traumatic stress as well as poor self esteem issues.  I am not a professional and can not guess at what a physician would say but I can deduct  from your post you need someone to advocate just for you. 

We have many forums here that you may benefit from but I think you need to find out just what mental health disorder you may be dealing with. This is the Anxiety Forum and we are more than glad to help you with your anxiety and panic issues. :)

I welcome you to Healing Well and you will find many people that know where your coming from and what your going through.

Healing Well is a online forum with scheduled chats. Online forums can be a great resource to help you manage your mental disorder and to help you with your recovery. We can  provide you with a great opportunity to meet with other people who are suffering from the same conditions and talk about your problems in a safe, anonymous environment.

There is something comforting about baring your soul to the members of Healing  Well and still being able to be anonymous.

Please know we care. Keep posting.

Respectfully

Kitt


 
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CBTgirl
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Date Joined Jun 2007
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   Posted 11/16/2007 2:21 PM (GMT -7)   
iceman69 said...
I have never been in a chat room. is anyone on line that can help me out.


It sure sounds like you have been through a lot and could use some help and support. I would look into getting some free counseling in your area. If you live in a decent sized city there are probably several places that offer their services free or at least have groups that are free of charge. Also see if your library has the book Been There, Done That? DO THIS! by Sam Obitz. It is the book that introduced me to TEA forms and really got me excited about CBT. The guy who wrote it had bad anxiety most of his life before he learned how to help himself get better through CBT. I found it very inspiring to hear his story of overcoming his problems with CBT. TEA forms are a thought countering exercise that help you put things back into perspective which alleviates anxiety and build new pathways in your brain that prevent anxiety from overwhelming you. CBT is what got me better and what I swear by it, but there are all kinds of things that can help and I'm sure others here will share what they have used that helped them. The important thing is to be doing something. Coming here and asking for help is an awesome first step. Now you just need to keep taking more steps :-)

stkitt
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Date Joined Apr 2007
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   Posted 11/16/2007 3:20 PM (GMT -7)   

Great Advice CBT, you are right on with that info.  So many have benefited from CBT.

Kudos for posting that. :)

Kitt


 
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*~* Not a mental health professional at all *~*
Dx: Anxiety/Panic, Depression, GERD, Osteoarthritis
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It is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver.~Mahatma Gandhi~
 


CBTgirl
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   Posted 11/27/2007 1:33 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks Kitt :-)
I wish others would join in and share their successes more often here.
I hope this finds you doing well and that you had a great Thanksgiving. I did and have the extra weight on my hips to prove it eyes
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