Good Morning anxietyridden,
I am so sorry you are going through this and I understand the anxiety that comes with your phobia as I have anxiety when exposed to certain illnesses. I don't do sick well. :(
Lyn's suggestion to see a physician that deals in eating disorders is a wonderful idea. This is one avenue to explore and I hope you soon have found a way to cope with the anxiety.
Know we are here to support you and we understand where your coming from with you issue. Keep on posting.......hugs.