Here is Wen
Thanks for writing, I have felt rather guilty about not being on the boards, but I just am not sure that I should be offering advice to anyone because I feel as though I’m just barely hanging on. But, there are times that I’ve been lurking here and there and there have been times that I feel like I could and should give a little advice but again, not sure I should offer advice to anyone.
Honestly though, I am doing better than just barely hanging on - I am doing ok and actually feel a little stronger each day, but feel like everything scares me. I don’t go out anywhere to speak of because it scares me. I know that I have to at some point because I will never get over the agoraphobia if I don’t. After the holidays are over, I plan to join the Bipolar Support Group that has just started locally – I’m hoping this will help.
During all of this madness – hospitalization, etc – my mother passed away (about 1.5 weeks ago). So that hasn’t helped my general mood any. Even though she and I didn’t get along and really had a distant relationship (at best), it’s still very sad that she’s gone. I didn’t go to the funeral as most of the family on that side don’t like me and being so “fragile” I just felt it better that I not go. But my kids went, so there was some representation from me and that’s great. My mother’s passing has been harder to deal with than I thought it would be. I honestly didn’t think I would have such a difficult time getting through this.
I will pop in to the boards this week and see if I can get caught up on what’s been going on. I am doing okay, even with everything going on – I’m just finding it difficult to get myself and my life together again. I know, I know – baby steps – my therapist keeps reminding me of this.
Kitt - yes, please feel free to post my note to you – I don’t mind. Thank you ever so much for caring so much about me to write to see how I’m doing. This just proves one more time how supportive and loving the Healing Well family really are. I too wish you were here so that you could help get me through this.
Big Hugs to all,
A slip of the foot you may soon recover, but a slip of the tongue you may never get over.
Moderator Anxiety ~ Panic Disorders
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