Since it's been a while since my last post, I just wanted to give you all an update on how things are going with me.
Well, in a word - hard. But I'm getting through each day. I'm trying to lower my expectations of myself so that I'm not setting myself up to fail. I'm trying to remember that it will take baby steps to get well again. It's not an easy thing, especially when you still have to deal with the every day life problems. Although I would like to remain a recluse forever, because it's so much easier, I know that I cannot do this. I do have kids after all and today is one of those days that I had to go out and face the world and I was able to do it. If it wasn't for the fact that my daughter needed medical attention, I wouldn't have gone out. My husband could have taken care of it quite capably, but I wanted to be involved as well - so I did.
I'm trying to keep my anxiety in check so it doesn't overwhelm me and so far it's going pretty well. I'm continuing to see my therapist and will do so for quite awhile I think. I'm seeing my pdoc tomorrow to go over the current meds and just to basically check in with him on how I'm doing. I don't think it will go like the last appoint did, with me being admitted to the hospital. I don't think I'm anywhere close to being like I was a few weeks ago. I feel good and hope the doc sees that. But I will let you all know how the appointment goes.
I'm even feeling optimistic enough to think about starting my own sewing business. This is something I have wanted to do for a very long time and now seems like the time to do it. I already have a couple of customers and hope to build on them through word of mouth. So far it's working. I love to sew, it's very relaxing for me and I'm pretty good at it.
Thank you all so much for continuing to ask about how I'm doing, the Healing Well family has come to mean so much to me and I am going to get back to posting on a regular basis.
To each and every person here - I wish you all a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Please stay safe and enjoy the holidays.
Hugs to all,
Dx: Agoraphobia, Barrett's Esophagus, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Fibromyalgia, Mitral Valve Prolapse, Panic/Anxiety Disorders, Probable Narcolepsy, PTSD, Restless Leg Syndrome, Severe Acid Reflux, Sleep Apnea, Social Anxiety
Rx: Abilify, Ambien CR, Ativan, Flexeril, Lamictal, Neurontin, Nexium, Requip, Ritalin ER
A slip of the foot you may soon recover, but a slip of the tongue you may never get over.