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|Posted By : Tickinit - 4/17/2017 6:11 PM|
|Hello, this is my first post, I am a 47 year old Male. I have had problems for 25 years. Last week several times i became disconnected. Things started to feel unreal. I have had those feelings before. When all this began many years back i was diagnosed with depression. i saw psychiatrists who gave me antidepressants, 6 different ones at different times, they never worked. I also had many physical problems as well, and 12 years ago i was diagnosed with Lyme disease. I thought that was the cause of all this, however i think i treated Lyme as much as i can, and after spending time online the last week, i truly believe i am bipolar. Wether it is related to lyme i don't know, but i have to look into treating bipolar. My question is, how do i find a reputable doctor? I plan to use providers of my health insurance, but when it came to Lyme disease i was told to only go with Lyme literate doctors which i did. So, would there happen to be a list of approved doctors or places to go? i don't want to risk being misdiagnosed again. thankyou for any help.|
|Posted By : Tim Tam - 4/17/2017 7:19 PM|
|What 6 different anti-depressants were you on?|
|Posted By : Tickinit - 4/17/2017 7:30 PM|
|Zoloft was the first. Lexapro was the last. In between was prozac, wellbutrin, effexor and celexa. Or lexapro was the last and celexa the second to last.|
|Posted By : Kiwibear - 4/17/2017 9:03 PM|
|My psychiatrist informed me while I was thankfully hospitalized, he said it takes time and detailed documentation to form an accurate diagnosis. Personally I had six different psychiatrists inaccurately diagnosed me; all diagnosis were on an outpatient structure. It wasn't until I was hospitalized and under their care and many eyes observing me; I finally got an accurate diagnosis. Bipolar 1 is my diagnosis and I am treated with lithuim,& lamotrigine. Maybe admit yourself into the inpatient ward in the hospital and inform them of your situation and your not feeling right. I am sorry your having a difficult time.|
|Posted By : Tickinit - 4/17/2017 9:07 PM|
|Kiwibear thankyou for responding. I don't feel so alone now. I was looking into the local hospital that has an inpatient service. I am sorry you had the experience of being inaccurately diagnosed too. It's time i do something.|
|Posted By : Tim Tam - 4/17/2017 10:18 PM|
This all sounds like a stuck record.
You say you've been to a number of psychiatrists who misdiagnosed you.
Kiwi says he's been to a number of psychiatrists who misdiagnosed him.
Now, I'm saying, I went to a number of psychiatrists who misdiagnosed me.
What's going on here?
You say: " saw psychiatrists who gave me antidepressants, 6 different ones at different times, they never worked."
And "i think i treated Lyme as much as i can, and after spending time online the last week, i truly believe i am bipolar. Wether it is related to lyme i don't know, but i have to look into treating bipolar."
You said, "i truly believe i am bipolar." How did you come to that conclusion?
You said: "So, would there happen to be a list of approved doctors or places to go?" (I think you're meaning a list of psychiatrists here who meet the specs of your insurance."
Then you add, "i don't want to risk being misdiagnosed again." Which would be the psychiatric thing.
So we're looking for a list of psychiatrists to satisfy our ins. company. I think any of them that are psychiatrists will be OK with your insurance.
1. I would go to your Real Yellow Pages in the computer phone book. Look up psychs for your hometown. Some will be men, some will be women, take your choice. I've had better luck with females psychiatrists and regular doctors also, and because it was a male psychiatrist who screwed me up. Does that remind you of anything?
2. Here's another deal. How do you improve your chances of getting a good psych?
A. One time I took an assertiveness training class. Got to know by name the head of the women's health center department at the hospital where the clinic was put on. I went to her after one of the meetings, and asked her, "Do you know the name of a good psychologist?" And she gave me one, who was very good.
B. When I needed a psychiatrist, I called a woman who was the head of a mental health organization, a woman I had met before, and I asked her for the name of a female psychiatrist. She said, "D. Jane Smith. I'd go to her myself."
I've been going to that psych for about 4 years. She's the best such doctor I've ever had.
So, you could call a women's health center, often they're at a local hospital, each hospital probably has one and you can call the main switchboard. Ask if anyone can recommend a good psychiatrist.
Along with "Mental Health Clinics," call these places, there could be 3 or 4 in town, and get some names.
"My psychiatrist informed me while I was thankfully hospitalized, he said it takes time and detailed documentation to form an accurate diagnosis. Personally I had six different psychiatrists inaccurately diagnosed me; all diagnosis were on an outpatient structure."
Six psychs miss-diagnosed this guy, about like with you? What's going on here? So now his properly dx'd as bipolar, just like you think you are.
Same experience with me. Miss dx'd as depressive for over 15 years.
All 3 of these united in that they went into the doctors' offices depressed. The psych sees them as depressed. He rx's them as depressed.
What's wrong with this picture? In all 3 cases with probably 10 psychs, none of them ever asked, "Do you ever have racing thoughts?" trying to find out if they are bipolar.
Why didn't they ask? I've never heard a psych say a word. They sit there and listen for the entire session. They don't say anything, how could they ask?
How did you figure out you were bipolar?
I learned from a lay counselor who knew my uncle, who he said was bipolar, and added, "And you probably are too." Notice, it wasn't through a psych that I learned that.
I then realized my mother's mother was bipolar, and that's where I got it from. Which was a big help, for it let me knew it wasn't my fault, and its good for getting a good dx.
Were your parents or gp's with emotional problems? It can sometimes skip a gen., so even if your parents were OK, it could come from a gp. I would ask around, sometimes aunts or uncles may have had that, another sign of that.
Here's signs of bipolar from mayoclinc.org. You might take this list to your next appt. and go down the list with him or her. Just as safety precaution. And if he or she doesn't agree, you can get another doctor.
Mania and hypomania
Mania and hypomania are two distinct types of episodes, but they have the same symptoms. Mania is more severe than hypomania and causes more noticeable problems at work, school and social activities, as well as relationship difficulties. Mania may also trigger a break from reality (psychosis) and require hospitalization.
Both a manic and a hypomanic episode include three or more of these symptoms:
•Abnormally upbeat, jumpy or wired
•Increased activity, energy or agitation
•Exaggerated sense of well-being and self-confidence (euphoria)
•Decreased need for sleep
•Poor decision-making — for example, going on buying sprees,
taking sexual risks or making foolish investments
Major depressive episode
A major depressive episode includes symptoms that are severe enough to cause noticeable difficulty in day-to-day activities, such as work, school, social activities or relationships. An episode includes five or more of these symptoms:
•Depressed mood, such as feeling sad, empty, hopeless or tearful (in children and teens, depressed mood can appear as irritability)
•Marked loss of interest or feeling no pleasure in all — or almost all — activities
•Significant weight loss when not dieting, weight gain, or decrease or increase in appetite (in children, failure to gain weight as expected can be a sign of depression)
•Either insomnia or sleeping too much
•Either restlessness or slowed behavior
•Fatigue or loss of energy
•Feelings of worthlessness or excessive or inappropriate guilt
•Decreased ability to think or concentrate, or indecisiveness
•Thinking about, planning or attempting suicide
Post Edited (Tim Tam) : 4/17/2017 10:30:20 PM (GMT-6)
|Posted By : Tickinit - 4/17/2017 11:12 PM|
|Exactly what i thought, why didnt they respond or discuss racing thoughts?????????|
I'll reply with more tomorrow, good night, it's 1:12pm. here.
|Posted By : Kiwibear - 4/18/2017 6:02 PM|
|Evening Tickinit, |
Tim Tam, contributed great information. A common denominator we seem to share is the frustration of incompetent psychiatrists. Please keep me informed how your doing. Navigating the health care system is overwhelming and more difficult when your not feeling well. Looks like you support here
|Posted By : Tickinit - 4/18/2017 9:48 PM|
|Tim Tam i'll answer your questions soon, but first to update me:|
I have been thinking of admitting myself to a hospital and did so tonight. I felt the need to take charge, address things, and felt uncertain of the pain tomorrow may bring. Last week was a week of becoming disconnected a few times. I had to ask my wife what my middle name was. What hers was. How long we have been together. My world around me felt unreal. That was last Saturday.
I felt myself slipping into another dimension So, tonight I admitted myself. They have a psychiatric inpatient facility, i thought i would be there.
They monitored me, but as i'm stable enough did not accept me. I had envisioned a team of people that perhaps come tomorrow would be all helping me. I thought wrong and now understand that as i'm not a danger to myself or anyone else they did not accept me. But i'm still scared.
I was asked routinely my age, dob, address, and other questions at different times and consitently accurately answred correctly. That must have been good for them to hear. I had a cat scan, ekg, and blood work, all was normal.
It was scary. I kept hoping my racing mind was not going to go into that scary world. The world where i become disconnected. Paranoid, or worse. Then, oddly, had a laugh to myself when after an hour I realized the young girl next to me was a safey monitor and then knew why i was in a hallway right next to a desk of nurses. I'm home now and ok.
I got a brochure for a local clinic. It is a step between outpatient psychicatry and full lockdown mode. I like the sound of it. I feel I am taking care of myself.
Tim Tam, this started 25 years ago. I ended a 3 year relationship. Several months after my internal thoughts of this ended in panic attacks. My bedroom became a trash compactor. I did however process emotions. The panic disappeared. For several weeks they were gone. All was normal. Happy life, positive, optimistic, then one day at work:
I was attacked. Never ending panic. Terror. I have not been the same since. I was happy that day. Not a care in the world. But what felt like a bioligical invasion of my mind decided i was not going to have a say in the matter.
I tried. Counselors, thereapist, psychiatrics, medications. 6 different antipressants. No relief. I even had a psychdoctor tell me that because i go out friday after work wiith my friends for happy hour and have 6 beers i should check myself into an AA place. Why didn't he ask the reason i was drinking? I'm no psychiatrist but i would have thought maybe someone was self medicating. I had another psychdr. tell me that because i have tried so many different antidepressants that the likely hood of the next one working was not good. Why was that not a clue? Such terrible pain asking for help and encountering such arrogance and dismissiveness.
Those were the days. Helpless. No internet. Early 90's. No way to research. No online support. Trusting in Doctors, what a mistake. 8 years of education after high school. What a joke. No "outside the box" thinking. If it is not in a book and strait forward they are clueless.
Then it got worse, irritable bowl, chronic heartburn. Chronic fatigue syndrome. Can't sleep, can't take a knap. Chills in the morning. headaches everyday. After 12 years of it, lyme disease diagnosis. It had made sense. Treated for severl years on abx. Depression lifted mostly. Anxiety less. Abx made bigger difference than antideprssants. But, still haven't been ok. Dog put to sleep, i reach for benadryl just to hold on. Winter terrible, hate christmas. Seasonal ups and downs for so long.
Then, last week. Disonnected and scared. And somehow, someway, the last 25 years all come back.
And it all makes sense. I am bipolar. Caused by lyme disease? perhaps. Did it trigger lyme disease? perahps. no aswers. Sound crazy? For sure. But somehow after last week i feel what is wrong with me. I looked into Depression, anxiety, bipolar, schizophrenia years ago. I never hallucinated. I never felt depressed for a while and then suddenly switch to being the opposite. I researched rapid cycling, it didn't fit me. But, somehow, some way, the past week symptoms have become so pronounced i turn to the internet. And there it is, mixed state. The last 25 years, thoughts racing, scared of stress. Buy house, want to pop pills. Falling out with family member, obsessing with anger. Mind racing. Loud noises intolerable. Strongs odors same as loud noises. Living in fear. Right now hard time pronouncing words. And i could just ramble on....
|Posted By : Tim Tam - 4/19/2017 11:45 AM|
Thank you for the update.
Sounds like you've been through it, like Kiwi and I have been through our own brand of that.
It's good that you reached out for help. That's why I got on this website.
1. You've explained it very well, so are you doing OK now? From a one (worst) to a 10 (best), how are you doing now?
2. Do you have any tranquilizers that can get you through the next few hours, the next few days, if you're doing poorly right now?
3. You can always go to the Emergency Room if you're doing bad, and perhaps they can give you some tranquilizers. They may hesitate, because they may worry about people going from er to er for such meds, but I would definitely consider that.
I've gotten some tranquillizers before, well, actually it was not from an er, but from a medical clinic, one of those, open Monday through Saturday, during the day, no appointment needed, things.
So, you might want to consider going to a medical clinical first, before an er. ER's can be more crowded, except those in the suburbs can be less crowded, and less wait, than those in the city.
Can you make an appointment with a psychiatrist? I find female psychiatrists to be more attentive, but it's your choice.
You can find a list of them for your town in the computer Real Yellow Pages. Write down the name, number and addresses of a few of them, and pick one.
To find a recommended one, may not be easy, but I would suggest in the Real Yellow Pages, looking under title, "Mental Hygiene" or "Mental Health," or "Psychological Counseling" for the name of a group connected with that.
Then call, and ask for a recommendation for a good psych. See if they can do that.
Otherwise, I would just go to one, show them the list of bipolar traits, tell them you think that's what it is. Maybe if the don't agree, ask them what on that list they don't agree with.
Get a list also of the medicines for bipolar, so you'll know if they are treating you for bipolar.
is your wife helping you with this? What does she think
I think you should also be positive that you can get through this. I've read that, believing going into a problem that you can solve it, increases your chances that you will.
Or, "One problem at a time, and be positive about that problem."
Can you let us know how this is going?
These are just my opinions as a bipolar.
|Posted By : Tickinit - 4/19/2017 8:40 PM|
|Tim Tam tonight is a good night. I am a 5 on your scale. Still a bit of a balancing act.|
I thought the same about the tranquilizers. I will try and get some soon. Real soon. I hope if the disconnected stuff happens, they'll take me out of it.
I agree, female therapists I always liked.
I will be calling the local clinic tomorrow, they left me a voicemail today stating the hospital called them. I can't afford to wait any longer. If I don't like the Doctor I'll try and switch, same for the therapist.
I'm glad you think I explained it well. I was rambling, but i had to, it was therapeutic. I hope it may have helped someone reading it.
I'm comforted to know my options after the hospital last night. The crisis counselor put his name on the clinic brochure. But I know the ER is open 24 hours. That is really comforting. I know i have resources. It's like a parachute for a new pilot. I realize the naure of an ER, to treat Trauma. In my case the IV in me would have been flowing some feel good stuff had i become real bad. But I'm not a broken bone, much different.
Thru all this, there are recurring feelings, but i know now to try and work it out in therapy. Trying to find the right therpist will be tricky. The feelings are the pain. The pain of what the nurses and doctors thought last night. What my wife will think. What she may think. She has been supportive, listening to my troubles for years always knowing that there was something wrong with me. We both knew, atleast now i know what i'm certain the problem is. She doesn't know i went last night, I don't want her to know. Don't be alamed, I'm ok. I want to deal with it now. I can only hope things don't change between us. But yet there it is, if it does likely i'll be more stable. I could see last Saturay she didin't understand it, but i suppopse unless you have felt it , you wouldn't. It makes sense. Only time will tell, good advice, one step a time. Break a big problem down into a strategy.
Each day for most of the last 2 weeks my eyes have opened up. I look at the world from a viewpoint of understanding. Scared, but understanding. It's a new one, a different one. But i have been in it a long time. It occured to me today, that maybe what has happened so recently is a change in an illness. A variation of it. The pronounced detached disconnected emotions that came on so strong. They were there before, but not like this, then i awoke and realized what i have suffered from. Like what was before so tightly wound separted a little just enough for me to see it. What were 2 things tightly wound separated into a left and right just enough.
So here I am, stable, strong. Thinking and thinking. Why so strong? Just for the moment? Could be. But i was strong last night, and took matters into my own hands. Happy for it. And if i can get thru so many years i'll keep going.
|Posted By : Tim Tam - 4/20/2017 10:20 AM|
Thanks for the response. It's good to keep us up to date with what's going on.
Sounds like you are making progress.
You said, "Tim Tam tonight is a good night. I am a 5 on your scale. Still a bit of a balancing act."
Sounds good that you are in the middle. Maybe from the middle we can move up a little bit.
"You say, "I will be calling the local clinic tomorrow, they left me a voicemail today stating the hospital called them. I can't afford to wait any longer. If I don't like the Doctor I'll try and switch, same for the therapist."
That sounds like a good plan.
It's also good that the mental health clinic called you, left a message.
And you added, "I will be calling the local clinic tomorrow," which would be today, or Thursday.
That does sound like real progress.
Can you get some tranquilizers?
What did the clinic say about an appointment?
You said, "So here I am, stable, strong. Thinking and thinking. Why so strong? Just for the moment? Could be. But i was strong last night, and took matters into my own hands. Happy for it. And if i can get thru so many years i'll keep going."
Sounds like something I heard along the way, or "Looking for a helping hand? What about the one on the end of your arm?"
|Posted By : Tickinit - 4/21/2017 1:42 PM|
|I saw my primary doctor yesterday. She was understanding and supportive. That meant alot. She gave me some tranquilizers. Enough till my appt. Tuesday. Your support and advice means alot too, especially to get some tranquilizers. I know you must truly understand how i feel. My doctor said something promising, and it was that what is happening with me is more understood now, compared to 25 years ago. I liked hearing that. It means hope and help. It's been difficult to look for answers for so long and not find any. I guess it took what happend the last couple of weeks to help find those answers. In time with the help of medication maybe I'll look at the hospital visit as a good thing despite knowing I had to go there. |
I called the clinic yesterday, it was stressful. The girl didn't think what i described fit bipolar when i stated i had been feeling disconnected. She asked if it was psychosis. I didn't know what the meant. The term scared me. Yet when i looked up the definition it was what i felt. It doesn't last long, but it happens. It has not happened since last Saturday. I hope a little xanax keeps it away til Tuesday. I have been reading that is does happen to bipolar people, and that most of the time there are other things like panic, anxiety, ocd, adhd stuff like that. I have felt that too. Now i recall Kiwibear's words that it took a team of diagnosticians to figure it out. Now there is your advice, to write down what exactly i have been feeling that makes me think i'm bipolar.
I thank both of you for your support, you have really helped me. I want you to know what. Your experiences have done that for me.
Right now i don't feel the need to do a partial hospitilazation. That was to be discussed at my appointment Tuesday. I think an outpatient will work, but i'm hesistant as i do not want another psychiatrist to not help me.
Anyway, I will keep you posted, maybe i won't post for a little but i'll write about my Tuesday appointment.
Take care everyone, stay strong, lets stay supportive of each other.
|Posted By : Tim Tam - 4/23/2017 3:43 PM|
|Good to hear that things are going so well.|
It's good to know that you got your tranquilizers from your primary doctor.
Also nice to know that you have an appointment Tuesday, which might not have happened if you had not checked yourself in a week or so ago.
Or, as you said, "In time with the help of medication maybe I'll look at the hospital visit as a good thing despite knowing I had to go there."
As you say, sometimes a negative can have a positive part.
You said, "I hope a little xanax keeps it (anxiety) away til Tuesday."
Right, that's what tranquilizers can do, get you through until your next appointment. It's always good to have some on hand in case of a problem.
You say, "It's been difficult to look for answers for so long and not find any." OK, you said you had been misdiagnosed as depressive only for basically all of that time.
I've just really learned from looking up some of this stuff on the net that, if they misdiagnose you as depressive only, they will give you an antidepressant which can throw you into mania (and panic attacks), because they are not giving you anything like Lithium to slow down the anti-depressant.
You said, "Right now i don't feel the need to do a partial hospitilazation. That was to be discussed at my appointment Tuesday. I think an outpatient will work, but i'm hesistant as i do not want another psychiatrist to not help me."
Yes, often people can be treated outpatient. They don't always need the, as you say, partial hospitilazation, when, again you said, "outpatient will work."
So by getting some help when you did, you may have avoided a hospital visit.
You say, "but i'm hesistant as i do not want another psychiatrist to not help me."
Yeah, easy to understand your concerns. Maybe take in data on bipolar to remind the doctor of things. Have in mind what you are see if the doctor agrees with you. Make your case for what you think is going on.
Or, as you say, "Now there is your advice, to write down what exactly i have been feeling that makes me think i'm bipolar."
You have talked about getting assistance from this website. I have a medical procedure tomorrow. I have a helper who is going to take me to that.
She e-mailed me today and also phoned me, leaving a message. Both said, don't forget to take your medicine for the hospital visit tomorrow.
Until I got those messages from her today, I had been putting off looking at what I was supposed to do about those medicines today. When I got those reminders from her, I first started looking for the paperwork that talked about that, and it said, take your first such meds at breakfast. I was going to wait more.
I emailed her back and thanked her for reminding me to take my meds, and told her, "It's like having somebody in the house with me."
Electronically, she was in the house with me, even though I'm here by myself. This website allowed us to be in the house with you, and to give you our views and encouragement, perhaps something we didn't have.
You said, "I thank both of you for your support, you have really helped me. I want you to know that. Your experiences have done that for me."
One day somebody will come up and tell you about their difficulties, and maybe you can help by telling them, "Guess what happened to me one time."
You're still going to have troubles, but it can help if you can be positive, not about the problem, but about your ability to solve it.
Or, "One problem at a time, and be positive about that problem."
Or, as you say, "Take care everyone, stay strong, lets stay supportive of each other."
|Posted By : Beautiful_Wreck67 - 6/29/2017 3:47 PM|
|I was misdiagnosed for years also! Sometimes a dr hears depression...and won't ask any questions after that. So it took some really bad life choices during mania to make me realize I'm not just "depressed".|
Bi-Polar ~ Anxiety Disorder ~ just a beautiful wreck
Celexa ~ Wellbutrin ~ Xanax ~ Latuda ~ Lunesta
|Posted By : Tim Tam - 6/29/2017 4:13 PM|
|You said, |
"I was misdiagnosed for years also! Sometimes a dr hears depression...and won't ask any questions after that. So it took some really bad life choices during mania to make me realize I'm not just "depressed"."
That is sad, sad, sad, sad, sad.
My worst is a male psychiatrist who gave me the worst possible advice, which ended up causing me troubles to this day 23 years later.
From then on, I could only go to female doctors.
|Posted By : Tickinit - 6/29/2017 8:23 PM|
|Tim Tam I hope your medical procedure went well. |
Beautiful wreck sorry to hear you are in the same boat. I love the username.
I just finished a 3 week Intensive Outpatient Program and before that 10 days in a partial hospitalization program. It has been tough. This has been a lot to process. So many years to get this diagnosis.
I saw a psychiatrist 2 weeks ago, I don’t think they are still asking the right questions. He wanted to put me on an antidepressant. I had to tell him they never worked, and how I reacted to them. Atleast he put me on Seroquel, something I wanted to try. It made me tired, but I also was very tired before starting it. It did however bring things down a bit in a good way, less anxious, less of my mind spinning up.
Next step is to join a support group in my area, one highly recommended by the clinic I was in. I would like to meet people like me. They seem to have a lot to offer, including partnering with a psychiatrist, and I imagine one who understands the finer things of bipolar disorder.
|Posted By : Tim Tam - 7/8/2017 3:37 PM|
Good to hear from you.
My medical procedure went well, thank you for asking.
"I just finished a 3 week Intensive Outpatient Program and before that 10 days in a partial hospitalization program. It has been tough. This has been a lot to process. So many years to get this diagnosis.
I saw a psychiatrist 2 weeks ago, I don’t think they are still asking the right questions. He wanted to put me on an antidepressant. I had to tell him they never worked, and how I reacted to them. Atleast he put me on Seroquel, something I wanted to try”
So, you’re now taking Seroquel anti-depressant. I’ve been on that.
So, if you’re bipolar, are they giving you anything for the mania?
You said, 4-21, "The girl didn't think what i described fit bipolar when i stated i had been feeling disconnected. She asked if it was psychosis. I didn't know what the meant. The term scared me. Yet when i looked up the definition it was what i felt. It doesn't last long, but it happens. It has not happened since last Saturday. I hope a little xanax keeps it away til Tuesday. I have been reading that is does happen to bipolar people, and that most of the time there are other things like panic, anxiety, ocd, adhd stuff like that. I have felt that too.”
You said they are have given you something like 5 anti-depressants over the years. And this will be the 6th? Yet with nothing to treat the mania.
You said you had heard that psychosis can be connected with bipolar.
The net says all of that can be treated with a variety of medicines.
Are you doing OK now?
|Posted By : Alicethenut - 8/24/2017 4:15 PM|
|My bipolar disorder was caused by bartonella which is a co-infection of Lyme disease. These tick Bourne infections can cause any mental illness. I'd really recommend going to an LLMD. I don't know what you mean when you say you've treated it the most you can but that's probably not true. I have been on intravenous antibiotics for almost a year and was on oral antibiotics and herbals for 6 months before that. You would think that's enough but I'm not even 20% better yet. Please don't check off lyme as a factor.|
|Posted By : Tim Tam - 8/24/2017 5:46 PM|
|Thanks for the heads-up Alice.|
It's good that you can reach out to help others with having difficulties yourself.
I have difficulties I don't often mention on here, so I know that we can help ourselves by trying to help others.
I once entered a health helpline that dealt with one particular ailment, and went on there with complaints that I had about my difficulty.
Then I saw some of the problems others were having, and my psychic energy got turned around as I tried to help some of those others, and my problems reduced. It hard to explain.
My concentration was on their difficulties. I never did mention my problem, and I'm trying to do the same on this website. I don't think about a lot of my problems, and that's all I use to think about.
For my bipolar, I'm on Lithium for the mania, and Mirtazapine for the depression. I'm sorry to hear yours was caused by Lime disease
You say, "I'd really recommend going to an LLMD" (Lime Literate Medical Doctor).
Since my psychiatrist helped me with my bipolar, I often recommend people with emotional problems see a good psychiatrist.
Are you in a hospital or are you at home? Are you having any trouble with your spirits? I kinda spends most my time at home, I don't drive, so I don't get out much.
At night I like to watch TV. Do you have any favorite TV shows? Do you read? Do you get to be around others very often?
There is also a "Lyme" disease forum on this Healing Well website, below the "Bipolar" forum by about 15 or so titles. You might want to visit that, also, to see if any of those people have some of your situations.
The monitor for this forum, UA, might want to give your part of this this tread a new title, since your topic it is a combination of bipolar and Lyme disease.
Post Edited (Tim Tam) : 8/24/2017 5:55:15 PM (GMT-6)