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Posted By : KennedyKP777 - 9/7/2017 11:31 AM
Hi, So I am depressed. I just got out of treatment. I was in treatment for 2 months. During that my husband decided he wanted to get separated and that when I came home I could not come home to our house I had to get an apartment and a job. We have a 3 year old little girl as well. So all of this has led me to enter into a pretty heavy depression. He has given me 6 months to prove that I can be stable and live on my own without trying to kill myself or doing self harm or spinning out and needing to go to the hospital. At first it was supposed to be a trial 6 months and we were supposed to have the possibility of getting back together. Now he just wants a divorce. Needless to say the only thing that is keeping me here is my little girl, he has her, but I love her with all of my heart and am working really hard to keep my head above water so that I can have joint custody and be with her. So usually with my bipolar I go between mania and mixed episodes and a little bit of depression. I have never been this depressed so I don't really know how to handle it. I sit and stare. My mind is to busy reminding me that I am alone for me to concentrate on anything else. I was a stay at home mom and wife for 4 1/2 years so now being alone in this apartment is a lot for me to handle and I have no friends. So my doctor is switching me to rexulti from 800mg of seroquel. I have been on seroquel for years so I am feeling really weird and out of it. I called her office because the anxiety is so bad and she said to stay were I was on the titration down and put me on valium for the anxiety. Anyway. I guess I just needed to share all of that, any thoughts are welcomed and also anyone on rexulti how is it? and does it work? any side effects? thanks for listening

Posted By : Tim Tam - 9/7/2017 1:48 PM
Yeah, that sounds pretty rough.

Now, here's my story at about your age.

I got fired from a job, as usual, was living on my own in an apartment, 225 miles from my mother, was not use to taking care of myself for I was the youngest child, who was use to my parents and older brother and sister making all the decisions for me.

I got depressed from losing the job and not having any socialization, and I'm in big trouble.

I waited 3 or 4 weeks going in circles trying to figure out what to do, and I had a nervous breakdown. Then, I was able to get some psychiatric help, put on some medicine (the worst in the world, stelizine (sp?) anti-psychotic), and then with the help of a job, got better.

You say, "So usually with my bipolar I go between mania and mixed episodes and a little bit of depression. I have never been this depressed so I don't really know how to handle it. I sit and stare. My mind is to busy reminding me that I am alone for me to concentrate on anything else."

Yeah, I have an idea of what you're going through.

You say, "So my doctor is switching me to rexulti from 800mg of seroquel."

drugs.com says, "Rexulti (brexpiprazole) is a serotonin-dopamine activity modulator (SDAM) used for the treatment of schizophrenia and as adjunctive treatment of major depressive"

Yeah, I was on that stelizine anti-psychotic for a good while, and it did help, although I didn't particularly like it. How are you doing on it?

I had a rough marriage, also, so I know what heck in the home is. I didn't really want to live along, either, and it would have been difficult in my emotionally upsetting state, difficult is not quite the word, but living in that house wasn't real easy, ether.

I know it could be difficult, but trying to be positive that you can do the best you can with the next problem, could be a help.

For the tough times you've been through, you've done pretty well.

You're welcome.

Posted By : UserANONYMOUS - 9/19/2017 9:18 AM
Hi Kennedy,

Welcome to the forum!

I am sorry for all your struggles. I am glad that you are seeking help for it. This is the first step, and it can help you get joint custody. Continue to progress positively. Are you attending therapy as well? It can be helpful.

Please know that you are not alone. We are here for you my friend.
Is there any local support groups, or community groups you can join in your area? I think this will be a great idea for you to meet new friends.

I hope things get better for you.

UA
Moderator - Bipolar

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