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Posted By : Wacko920 - 9/9/2017 12:54 PM
I'm a 54 year old male that was diagnosed with bipolar in 2000, and PTSD in 2016. I take Lamotrigine 200MG a day for the bipolar and Aripiprazole 10MG a day for the PTSD.

I see a psychiatrist, but the only therapy I can get is group which doesn't work for me. I can't be in a room with more than one maybe two people, and crowds or being crowded is a no no. The place that I go too have people that call me once a month and try to get me to do a group. I'm like NO! Thank goodness my psychiatrist understands.

I have other issues as well such as a cyst in my head pushing my brain to the left. I live with chronic pain from the cyst and arthritis in my back and neck. I have heart problems, high blood pressure, and diabetes as well. The joy of getting old, lol.

I got into a fight with my medical doctor a few months back and quit seeing him, so my family and psychiatrist has been on me to get a new one. They don't seem to understand what it means for me to get on a crowded bus, sit in a crowded doctors office, and then get on a crowded bus again. For me it's a real fight and both mentally and physically wipes me out. I guess on monday I will have to bit the bullent and do it since I'm having issues with my heart again. Oh, and that means after all the busses and doctors office I get to do another bus and doctors office to see the cardiologist. God, this is a hard one.

So, I fight every day with my issues and just needed to unload a bit.

Posted By : kellyinCali - 9/9/2017 11:43 PM
I am so sorry that you have so much to contend with. I am pleased to hear that your bipolar is being managed. I'd like to suggest that you "cross post" on the **Anxiety/Panic** Forum as it is more active and the PTSD you describe will be familiar to some of its members.

Cyber HUG.

Posted By : Wacko920 - 9/11/2017 9:02 AM
Thank you, I will see about cross posting it.

Posted By : theHTreturns... - 9/16/2017 3:23 AM
good med mix. i use lamo as well. least amount of s/e, as with aripiprozole. i have arthritis, diabetes, had double by pass. my anxiety is when i do uni teaching gigs, and i vomit before i head out, but still do it. desensitization might be useful, like on buses with not many peeps on board. i freak out at airports, customs and immigration, shake, sweat, would think i was loaded with drugs!!! but......i still do it. breathing exercises help me. might u too. forum slow atm. ht.

Posted By : UserANONYMOUS - 9/18/2017 8:09 AM
Hi Wacko920,

Welcome to the forum!

I am so sorry for your struggles.Talking in front of people was never a strength for me. But I learned by force due to work. However, I know talking about your feelings in front of others may be more overwhelming and frightening. Group therapy is a safe place. I guess you can also listen to others sharing their experience and coping techniques, and it can be helpful to you.

How did you appointments go? I hope they went well!

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