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Posted By : WeezyJefferson - 9/14/2017 7:20 PM
Today was one of those days i hardly ever have where I legitimatey don't want to feel ANYTHING.
I put socks and sweats on today.I took xanax to try and quiet the mind, it didn't do a thing. I took a benadryl hoping to go back to sleep. phone was going nuts. I can't even leave to get water. I keep making tea! I don't know what to do with myself. i just know I can't leave. Good old Thursday freak out. skull

Posted By : BnotAfraid - 9/20/2017 2:47 PM
Weezy

so you were going through this, I can empathize.

What coping skills do you use?

Peace
trina
Moderator - Depression

"...when the gift of sight is cause enough for jubilation."
Billy Collins from the poem. HIGH

DX: reverse Trigeminal Neuralgia;Cluster headaches; Atypical face pain;Hemicrania Continua; raynauds;complex PTSD; recurring MDD,disassociative disorder;

Posted By : older guy - 9/22/2017 7:13 AM
Hi Weezy,

You didn't say why you can't leave home. I am sorry to hear you are having a hard day. I have those sometimes. I get anxious about something and obsess about it. I know now I just have to put my attention on some distraction. It can be something simple like straightening up my room, or anything that gives me a good feeling, like I have done something to make my life even a little bit better.

Do you have to answer the phone? Can you turn off the ringer? Or whatever you need to do to get things calm for a while so you can calm down.

I wish you luck.
Rich

bipolar disorder, depression, anxiety, upper denture, benign prostate hyperplasia
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cymbalta, lamotrigine, zyprexa, klonopin
crestor
doxazosin

Posted By : BnotAfraid - 9/22/2017 11:49 AM
meant to say "so sorry"

how are you today?

Peace
Trina
Moderator - Depression

"...when the gift of sight is cause enough for jubilation."
Billy Collins from the poem. HIGH

DX: reverse Trigeminal Neuralgia;Cluster headaches; Atypical face pain;Hemicrania Continua; raynauds;complex PTSD; recurring MDD,disassociative disorder;

Posted By : WeezyJefferson - 9/22/2017 10:05 PM
Hi Trina and Rich - thank you so much for replying smile

Today is meh. I am isolating myself again, which is not good - but I am not in freakout mode like last week. I think the reason I can't leave the house when I get this way is because I don't have the energy to deal with people and pretend to be fine, because opening up the whole "bad day" can of worms isn't worth it to me. Fortunately or unfortunately, I have a wide network of friends and family to whom I feel held accountable to some extent. Today I managed to dress and leave the house, do some errands, do some laundry etc. I had evening plans I cancelled (I do that a LOT) because I just don't feel like myself today. Kind of forgot what myself feels like, to be honest.

Trina, I currently am not using any of my coping mechanisms. Usually I can get into a book, maybe even tv. My phone and social media can be dangerous because I get sensitive that my friends are out doing fun things or I start doing the whole comparison stuff. I do clean (as Rich suggested - and you're right, redirecting my head helps and makes me feel like I've done something positive!) but there are those days when I just can't. Last week scared me and I'm still recovering from a crap week but I'm on the up and up, I think? I hope?

I currently have no routine or set schedule so I know I need to make one for myself. I know I "need" to do a lot of things to get better. Sadly, I am struggling to find the will to do it!

I know this too shall pass, and I hope anyone else who might stumble onto my woe is me posts knows that too. But it sure sucks being in the thick of it!!

Sending good thoughts <3

Posted By : theHTreturns... - 9/22/2017 10:09 PM
sending strength mate.

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