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|Posted By : MDoe - 10/1/2017 1:07 AM|
My anxiety has been hit or miss with me lately. I'm too scared to go back to the gym as recently, every time I go I get light headed and tired. My anxiety symptoms are also completely frightening. I've had more EKGs and blood tests than I can count, and multiple doctors have said I'm fine. But I don't believe them. I keep thinking "something must be wrong," yet no matter how many tests I do, the doctors keep saying I'm fine. Everything from stress tests, holter-monitors (wore one for 2 weeks), the works - multiple blood tests to check for clots. All that's left is a heart CT scan. I had one scheduled but I cancelled it in a "high moment" where I felt completely normal. Now I'm thinking "what if that would have been the one thing that caught the problem that is now going undetected?"
The symptoms scare me. I have palpitations at random, more so at night or when I'm tired (and I'm always tired). My left arm almost always hurts (I'm dominant left handed, if that helps), and I get random soreness in my muscles. Occasionally, my left jaw will hurt, or I'll get a pain on my upper left back - it's scaring the heck out of me! I started using my CPAP again. I feel tired a lot - sometimes at work, between 2 and 4, I have this huge urge to sleep. I fight it all the way until 6/7PM. Tonight, as I was laying down watching NARCOS at home (great show, btw!), I felt this pressure on my chest, like it was caving in. It lasted a couple of seconds but coupled with the sleepiness, boy did I freak out. Mind you, about 3 or 4 hours prior I had a pretty big meal (steak, hot dogs, veggies, chicken - the works). Was it gasto-related? Was it heart? I don't know, but my anxiety went into "you're having a 'silent heart attack' and que an hour and a half of pacing back and forth and googling every type of terrible end to a life via cardiovascular failure imaginable.
More than one doctor has said I'm okay, but I don't believe it. I don't want to take anti-anxiety meds. I want to beat this - but I'm always scared of something. I used to be able to go to the gym for 2 hours straight on the elliptical and watch my favorite shows and not think a thing of it. Now, I'm too scared to go for a walk.
Did anyone else have this experience? Should I believe my doctors? My therapist is trying to help but I've been so busy with work that I haven't had the regular sessions.
This whole anxiety thing is really frustrating me. I want my life back. I want to feel like I'm alive again - right now I feel so incredibly helpless and trapped.
Any ideas, help, advice -- anything, would be appreciated.
Edit: I'm only 32 years old!
|Posted By : theHTreturns... - 10/1/2017 8:02 AM|
|hi and welcome. this is classic anxiety. try and not google, it will only stress you out and think you have whatever you read. we all been there. trust your dr's, you have had all the tests.....anxiety can be like heart attack symptoms, but you been cleared. believe it. i have had a double by-pass, and know, and use a cpap. got to try and relax and deviate your mind, try some gentle breathing, in thru nose, big inhale, hold for 3 seconds and slowly exhale in one long slow continous breath. repeat a few times. your mind is focusing too intensley and in this you are setting your mind up for a panic attack. distraction is key. err spelling bad i am. i use cold water down the nape of my neck, just lightly running the shower by just sticking me head in. the shock of the cold helps. plenty of other techniques in the resources thread. i am not always on, but i noticed that it is a weekend, i am in australia, thus sometimes i see stuff before others pop in. keep strong, other friends will pop in. you are safe, trust in the doc.|
|Posted By : Scaredy Cat - 10/1/2017 10:28 AM|
|Hi MDoe and welcome!|
I am sorry to hear of the current challenges you are facing with anxiety and symptoms. I understand completely...(specifically regarding the fear of exercise...b/c I am an athlete by profession!)
I do encourage you to attend your therapy as often and regularly as possible. It will help with time and continued effort.
I also urge you to be consistent with an ongoing self help regimen. At the top of the main forum page here you'll find great material to work with in our Resources
Start with the Stress Relieving Exercises link and the Health Anxiety info and advice. This will make a difference in how you feel if practiced daily!
Finally, keep posting with us as well if you find it helpful. We understand, care and support is key!
Talk soon ,
"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"
"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles...it empties today of its strength."
Corrie Ten Boom
Panic Syndrome recovery due to CBT
|Posted By : MDoe - 10/1/2017 1:02 PM|
|Thank you, everyone, for your responses. They're super helpful. I ended up going to the emergency room because I was so freaked out. The ER doctors and nurses were great. They did a blood test, an EKG and a chest x-ray. The results were great. The ER doctor said that my chances of having any heart disease were 1.7%. I remember having a cholesterol blood test a week ago and from what the doctor told me then, everything was normal. It is still scary, to be honest. I still have palpitations every once in a while, even have some right now.|
Hopefully this all passes. Having to go back to the ER is a pain. I feel so weird going there, being 32 and in relatively good health. Believing that everything is okay, in my opinion, is more than half the battle.
I really want to believe everything is okay. The little demon of anxiety within me makes it hard to do that.
What can I do to rest assured that my doctors are all right, and I am the one that is wrong?
Thanks again everyone.
|Posted By : theHTreturns... - 10/2/2017 7:00 PM|
|because ya cholesterol is, good., because you passed ekg, bloods, stress test, holter monitor! is ya anxiety my friend. do the things fore-mentioned. it will pass. deviate that mind.|
|Posted By : AnxiousTexan - 10/7/2017 10:06 AM|
|Sometimes I feel that I have heart palpitations too, but when I told me doc he thought it might actually just be muscle spasms in my esophagus given that I have occasional issues with Acid reflux / GERD.|
Not sure if that might be an issue with you but wanted to throw that out there.
Anxiety Sufferer Since the 1980s
Lexapro @ 10mg per day
Trazodone as needed for sleep