On Wednesday this week I had an injection in my ankle/foot to help with pain, not only was the procedure dreadfully painful in it's self, but 4 days later and still in more pain than I had before!
I'm so disappointed in it all and feel I've gone 3 steps back and not forward. My head was in the right place and had been since Christmas, I learnt to cope with the pain and adjusted life so I could deal with it. Now I feel out of control, and back to where I was before Christmas, I'm tearful, depressed and upset about the whole thing. I know they said it was only a slight chance it would work, and I told myself and others around me that I wasn't going to get my hopes up, but deep down I must have otherwise I wouldn't feel like this today.
I'm going to tell my specialist on Monday when I see him that 'that's it' no more trying this and that as nothing has worked in the past two years and I must just get on with life, take the drugs have the infusions and learn once again to adjust to it. I just can't go through this again, I'm over it.
Sorry just having a rant as I'm frustrated by the whole thing, it's no ones fault, I had to try, it failed but enough is enough.
Here endith the rant for today, tomorrow hopefully will be a better one.
AS - High Blood Pressure - Irregular Heartbeats - High Cholesterol - Insulin Resistants Disease
Meds: Remicade, Methotrexat, Micardis, Verapamil, Lipitor, Metformin