Melttdown, WOW is exactly what I kept saying as I read all of these comments!
I try to explain how I feel to my husband sometimes and I just can't find the words to describe it. And when I describe it to the best of my ability its obvious he totally doesn't get it. I know all of this too well. I have actually felt okay for the past 2 weeks. I took a vacation from work and stayed home to try to get things caught up at home and to take a little time for myself to get some scrapbooking done. All I kept saying leading up to the vacation time was, "I just hope I feel good while I'm off work so I can get something accomplished". I seriously think sometimes that people think I want sympathy but, I don't want sympathy at all...I just want to feel NORMAL!
I can totally relate to Weary's comment about it seeming easier when you LOOKED sick, Lady Writer's comment, "wondering if I'm fooling myself & I'm just being lazy". I question myself constantly. I can also relate to Moggy's comment, "My house is a complete mess, and I tell myself in the morning that I will start cleaning it, and then I will look at the living room and just get completely overwhelmed. Then I end up sitting on the couch staring into space for a while" or taking a nap. And also her comment, "when I type now, my fingers get all scrambled up and I am constantly having to go back and retype things I have misspelled, so typing something takes twice as long. I cannot remember anything anymore, even if I make an appointment in the morning for later in the day, I have to write it down!' I've even set reminders on my phone that go off and I turn it off and still forget to do what I had the reminder set for. I definately feel that I am slacking at work. How do you, so-called, "sell yourself" on your self-assessment worksheet at work in order to get a raise or at least keep from being demoted? about 4-5 years ago I was able to self myself so well that I was promoted, placed in a different paygrade and put on salary. I was so happy and did so well for a while but, in the past 2-3 years I think I have declined. And it seems to have really gotten bad over the past 6 months.
Anyway....All I can say is I can definately relate to everyone here! And I hope and pray for all of our sake that we can have more good times than bad.
My thoughts and prayers are with you all.