Well I forgot all about having an appt. this coming Saturday until they called to confirm it.
Haven't been feeling too good since early June. All my joints feel tender yet if he asks me (as he always does) on a scale from 1 to 10 what is it? I HATE that question. For me pain is either bearable (meaning I go to work every day and take Advil or nothing) to unbearable which I equate with my onset pain that rendered me an invalid for months and not even oxycontin touched. I never know what to say.
Then he will ask if its tender at rest or with movement. Well more with movement but I have a very mentally challenging job all day so I really can't think about how my body feels if I'm still.
Do you have morning stiffness? Well...I do but its minimal- again I compare to my onset days when my body parts didn't even move properly but I had a lot of swelling at the time too. So I'll say not really.
Can you sleep? Yes- in fact I've been going to bed an hr. earlier and still tired.
Do you still work your two jobs? Yes I have no choice to shoulder on and do what needs to be done.
Then he'll look at my hands and feet for deformity- none.
Then he will say I see no sign of any RA activity- see you in 3 months!
That's what gets me. I'm fine with him keeping me off the medicine because it's so toxic and the risks outweigh the need. But to say he sees no sign of RA activity when I'm tender every day & tired just makes me feel bad. I just want some validation.
I kind of feel like all I do is complain when I go for these check ups.
Maybe I should just say- I'm fine see you in 3 months?