honestly, what i write makes what really is happening look good! it is a terrible ordeal. but what is keeping me grounded and thankful is that i am able to get my Humira @ no cost, i have a roof over my head, some food to eat, great support from you guys, doctors that truly try to do everything in their capability for me, a wonderful wonderful boyfriend, and 4 absolutley hysterical cats!
regarding money...my meds are my main concern. i have no car, do not own a house...so nothing i have is worth anything, so nothing can be repossessed. if i have to file bankruptcy...so be it. my credit is already ruined!! and i know i cannot be put in jail for unpaid ER visits and hospitalization.
so i hang on to the notion that I WILL GET BETTER one day & will be able to work a normal nursing shift...even if i have to wait till i'm 40...i don't care. i've lots to do in this life.
getting SSD would be a life saver and i desperatley need it. i know that when i run out of funds, Joe will jump in for me....but i don't want him to do that, but i know he would. he is very very stable and successful.
i bet ya can tell i'm constantly drilling this stuff in my head right?? it's the only way i am staying sane.
hoping for a good outcome from all of this.
it's just really hard having no "plan" or workers disabilty or anything to draw on.
even this little laptop is not mine! it's my honey's he gave me for school. turned out to serve a lot of purposes too!
have a good night