What a scary reaction to the drugs! You should Google Enbril, humira and other biologics so that you are educated about
them and potential side effects. There are several threads that you can go back and look at from myself and Don and Alice. When do you see your Rheumy again?
We have had great success and I have mine controlled enough to live a normal life. At dx, I was in the same physical shape lower extremities as you and mentally as well. Crying in my cereal, literally, and ready to give up. And I'm a pretty tough gal.
Don't give up! There will be better days, whatever path you choose. Good luck! My email is also
open if you want to email me.