well i havent been addressing what i have been feeling increasingly everyday......pain.
i really wanted the mtx to be my solution but i now think it has been the prednisone all along!
i stopped the pred. 11 days ago and today i am home from work with my feet hardly walking, my hands and wrists unable to hardly grasp and in constant pain. knees stinging etc. plus the cough thingy, ugh. yes i felt everyday myself getting worse but thought it was withdrawl or mind over matter? ,NOT.
so i been home frustrated and thinking how i was led to believe the mtx was my cure-all, but it really was the prednisone, and i am back on it! each day was getting a little tougher and i didnt want to think that it was happening, but today "I QUIT"
not to discourage others this is just my plight that i kept denying til frankly I can hardly walk today. i am certain MTX works for others!
so here is my Ode to prednisone as i need to put laughter back on my menu!
P is for the pain free days you gave me!
R is for the relief I took for granted!
E is for every pain you masked!
D is for the Dang good way you made me feel!
N is for nothing that has compared!
I is for "me" wanting it all to go away!
S is for some other thing to help us.
O is for the non-Obvious pain we hide from others.
N is for Not wanting to take this med forever.
E is for everything I forgot to mention !
No pity Parties needed, unfortunately you are all familiar in one way or another with this.
i didnt want to share the mtx wasnt working alone as well at first cuz i thought it would get better, not worse. But for me ............. i guess it is not!