I think I might have bipolar disorder. I have suffered from depression on and off nearly all my life. I've been on and off antidepressants and tranquilizers since I was 15 yrs old. I'm now 48 yrs old. I just did a questionnaire on it and it said I most definitely was.
I hardly ever see a doctor now, just get repeat prescript
ions for amitriptyline, which I'm always trying to cut down or come off of, because I've always believed it was an illness that a could get better from. I feel even worse now because that means I'll never get better.
I was really nasty to my husband last night, telling him everything that was wrong in our marriage, and blaming him for everything. I think I really hurt his feelings. But this morning he was just acting normal as if nothing had happened, and I feel so guilty. Sorry for venting my feelings on your forum, but I don't have anybody to talk to.