Hi everyone. My bipolar disorder has been under control for the past year and a half. I take Triliptal, Lamictal, and Seroquel to try and keep myself stable.
This past August I had some really serious surgery (had my colon removed) and slowly but surely, my depression has crept back upon me. My body image has changed alot over the past months, inside and outside, and I've been hurting alot. I keep all of my feelings and frustrations bottled up inside until I can't handle anymore, and then I make an appointment with my counselor. I am very thankful for him, because he's intermittently helped me (and my family) with alot since I was diagnosed with bipolar years ago.
I try to read positive affirmations over the internet and do breathing excercises to calm myself, but it's hard to make them work when you can't concentrate and feel like you're bottoming out. Unfortunately, I don't have many people that I can talk to about my feelings and mental health. Mostly, my counselor and my husband. Sometimes, it's difficult to explain serious depression to someone if they haven't gone thru it, even though they live with you and can see it in your eyes that you're hurting.
I'm happy to meet each and every one of you and hope that you are able to enjoy some part of your life right now, and have some kind of support system. Bipolar disorder isn't about what's in the movies or on Dr. Phil.