im 28yrs old,from Bosnia.Been in the states since 1999.I was always unhappy,angry eversince i was a teenager.
Had a rough childhood,dont have a great realitionship with my father at all.I can never forgive him for all the beatings and verbal abuse.
I carry this anger and unhappiness with me,cant let go,ugh
I tried Effexor,Zoloft,Wellbutrin,Cymbalta and Lamictal.I was doing good on Lamictal for 4months and then i quit.DOnt know why.big mistake.I stopped in jan08 and eversince then ive been worse then ever.Crying a lot,gained 20lbs from Seroquel,tried several sleep aids,nothing.
My husband says i never give anything enough time to work,i quit a lot.I agree with him but it hurts to hear it from somebody else.
Im going to my doctor today to go back on Lamictal.I was diagnosed with Bipolar II.I need to learn how to control my anger,be more outgoing,and just be darn happy.
Why cant i get up everyday and just look forward to a new day???
Each night i go to bed i wish i wouldn't wake up..
Im so miserable,i know im not the only one with emotional/mental problems.
There is so much more i could go on and on about this depression.
I hope Lamictal will help me with these mood swings.I dont know want to lose my husband who has been there for me for the last 8yrs.He is such a sweetheart,always there for me but doesnt think that im depressed.he thinks its just a phase.....