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Date Joined Apr 2008
Total Posts : 1
   Posted 4/14/2008 7:49 AM (GMT -7)   
Hello Everyone!
I am looking forward to sharing advice and learning new thing about BP on this site.
My story:
I always knew I was a misfit but I couldn't quite understand why.  Then one day in 2006 I completely lost it.  I was at a Horse track with my family and I was drinking.  I was also on anti-depressants.  Then I had a bad manic break. (Normally my mania caused me to feel like I was the ruler of the world.  I could do anything.  It actually made me more productive....but it did have a black side as described below) 
At some point I blacked out and I began yelling at the jockeys and the horses - IN FRONT OF MY KIDS AND WIFE.  My wife somehow got me out to the car in the parking lot where she thought I was no longer a danger.  She went back inside the track.  I was told that I later left the car and was wandering around the parking lot causing trouble.  The cops came and charged me with disorderly.  Still blacked out, I don't remember this.  At some point my wife and kids came and tried to bring me home.  I was freaking out in the car and the cops pulled us over.  I was arrested and thrown in jail.  I'm told I was screaming and threatening the cops (yeah, real smart) - still no memory. Another disordely charge. 
After screaming all night in my cell, the cops realized something was wrong with me.  They eventually brought me to a psych ward where my memory came back. ("Hey where am I" is memory #1)
After much analysis, the psych doctor diagnosed me with bipolar.  I stayed in the psych ward for a week.  My wife didn't want me home and the kids were terrified of me.
My marriage crumbled after that and it took a long while to gain the trust of my kids again.
These day I'm on a bunch of meds trying to survive one day at a time.
I realize now there is hope now matter how dark things get.  We just have to push through this together!  Thanks for reading this.

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Date Joined May 2007
Total Posts : 3715
   Posted 4/14/2008 7:54 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi vbProgrammer666,

Welcome to HealingWell, glad to have you. You have quite a story. I'm sorry you had to lose your marriage in the process of dealing with your bp. Thank you for sharing with us and I hope you find some community and friendship here.

Co-Moderator, Bipolar Forum
Bipolar II

New Member

Date Joined Apr 2008
Total Posts : 15
   Posted 4/14/2008 7:56 AM (GMT -7)   
Welcome VB programmer. I am too a programmer. Welcome.

olivia of course
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Date Joined Jul 2006
Total Posts : 1523
   Posted 4/15/2008 8:58 PM (GMT -7)   
Welcome to HW vbP :-)
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Only by seeking challenges can we hope to find the best in ourselves.
~Robert Rodriguez

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Date Joined Mar 2008
Total Posts : 82
   Posted 4/16/2008 8:34 AM (GMT -7)   
A warm wlecome to you
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