You are doing better than me. For most of the past 4 years I was afraid to leave the house. Like I said before I only can go certain places by myself without freaking out and panicking.
It sounds so crazy when you tell "normal people" this because it sounds so outrageous.
I am terrified also of how to fit back into society. I wonder what will I do if my disability is turned down. I have not billed up enough energy to get back in the race, so to speak. Most people don't understand that having biopolar problems or any mental illness is not something that can just be turned on and off whenever we feel like it. I don't know about you but I fear what every day will bring. I just hope I can keep it together from day to day. Who ever coined the phrase one day at a time surely had been thru something. I want to say that I have two issues---in 2004 my husband was killed in a truck/train accident which putting it mildly has torn my life to little pieces. I've gone thru so much hurt, pain, not understanding, anger, rage, hate--you name it I have it. Everyday was filled with such dread and pain I was not able to cope and just lost it. I have not been in the hospital yet--just a outpatient program. I can say it has been a long and hard journey. And I wondered why my depression was getting worse and worse finally last year I was told I was bp 2 and yet another treatment plan was given. The litithum has helped but still problems. I just hope that one day I can see for myself I have improved.