Yes, for once [in a long time] I have some good news.
- The CMO is going to pay the deductible for me to see a psychiatrist. [because my mom lost all her money at the casino and refuses to pay]
- My family is asking about me!! [I called my older sister to wish her a happy birthday (I try not to talk to her because she is emotionally unstable and in denial about every her depression and being diagnosed with bi-polar and the fact that she was ever abused.) but I called her wished her a happy birthday and she said that my dad and step-mother, and aunts and uncles, and everyone has been asking about me!!! [I don’t talk to them because my father makes it seem like he hates me, my step-mother does hate me and because I’m not close with my dad and step-mother, I just don’t get to speak with the rest of the family.]
- I am feeling a lot better, my mom has been making comments about my weight still but I’m kind of just kicking what she says to the side.
- Finally my urges are slowly starting to go away, I still get them but not as often and not as intense.
yay!!, okay so its not as exciting as I'm making it out to be but I am happy, I think. Well I'm making my self believe I'm happy, I will take any happiness I can get even if it's just temporary.
bring me back home