I saw the pdoc on June 2nd. I told her I was seeing things move out of the corner of my eye and more frequent manic episodes after she raised the depakine to 1000mg. Oh and I also had a panic attack the day before (it has been a while since I posted so I don't remember what I have told you guys or not). So she has decreased it to 500 mg again put me on Risperdal and fluanxol (as needed) alongside the depakine and zoloft. Well, the I think the risperdal is working but the side effects are not good at all. It supresses my appetite so I don't eat until I feel weak and shaky. the other day I was weak and shaky all day. Yesterday and today I have eaten more so I don't feel so bad. But today I wanted to go see my GP cuz my pdoc is out of town until the middle of July. But before I could go see her, I had to the clinic for dh's work to get a referral so I wouldn't have to pay. Well, now they won't give referrals unless it is an emergency. So when I went to get the referral she took my vitals and my blood pressure was 80/50 on one arm and 104/53 on the other. How that is possible I don't know. she wanted to put on a saline drip but I said I had to go. I did tell her that I needed to see the GP so she could consult with someone else and try to adjust my meds or something so we can fix my blood pressure. she still didn't think it was an emergency and said they could fix the blood pressure there. I really hate this doctor btw cuz she never seems like she knows what the hell she is doing. But there wasn't anyone else there. And my moods have been so up and down that I almost cried in the office. I mean come on, the saline drip is not going to fix the low blood pressure and she wanted to give some meds for it too, which I didn't get cuz I don't know how it is going to intereact with my BP meds. So now I am back at square one. Dh sent an email to the head doctor to try to get the referral for me. But that doctor said I could go to any doctor I want for the BP, pay out of pocket and the company will pay us back. Okay, fine and dandy, except I only have $3 in the darn bank and we can't pay out of pocket and we are still waiting for the company to pay us back for my meds and previous pdoc visits. and dh doesn't get paid for another two weeks. I don't know what to do in the meantime. I won't go to the ER cuz they will just want to put me on meds for the low blood pressure too and won't know what else to do. I could go to the psych hospital but even my pdoc told me not to go there. So for now I am trying to eat more and eat more salty things too. It is helping some.
Anyway, I am rambling now. But thanks for letting me vent.
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