For me at first I had no clue that the SSRIs could be doing that to me. Well I sort of did, like when I first started on them I mentioned to my doc that I was bouncing off the walls and I felt like I was going to crawl out of my skin if I didn't do something...I didn't pay attention to the shopping because at the time I was working and making enough money to pay for it all, calling people in the middle of the night just to talk their ear off, and the reckless sex...I just thought I was a horny person lol. Sorry for the TMI. So instead of putting two and two together they just gave me sedatives and told me to take them when I felt like that. It obviously wasn't completely the docs fault though, I had no idea how to explain it all to them. I would get manic and apply to colleges, sometimes I would make it to the first day and so on, but eventually would drop out, or I would quit before I even got there. I did this with jobs too. When I would be manic like this and was untreated I thought I could do these things, when in reality I couldn't. My highs were high and made me think I was fine, then I would crash and realize I couldn't do the stuff I had agreed to. Just to get an idea...I've been to college since I was 18, 5 times. It would've been 7 if I went the other two times. I can't even tell you how many jobs I started and quit over the years.
So I finally found a doc that started pulling this stuff out of me. Like she actually knew the right questions to ask and since I didn't know where she was going with it I just told the truth. That's how they figured out I was bipolar, but they didn't figure out that the SSRIs were affecting me so badly. They had me on mood stabilizers, anti-psychotics, benzos, and SSRIs and couldn't figure out why I was still so bad. When I went to my new doc, the old one didn't take my new insurance, he started to notice the pattern with my SSRI increases. So ever since they pulled the SSRIs I don't have as many, or as bad, manic episodes. I still have them, but not as often. The last time I was really bad they put me on a high dosage of zyprexa and it worked beautifully...the weight gain though...I'm already over weight and at risk for diabetes...was their reason for taking me off of it and now trying lamictal. The zyprexa is the only thing that's ever really helped me so now I'm afraid I won't find something else. So now I wait for the lamictal to kick in.
Bipolar, panic disorder, PTSD, PCOS, hashimoto's disease/hypothyroidism, and in the process of being diagnosed with crohns. Too many meds to list!