Sukay & Casem, thank you for the words of support and understanding. It means so much to me. I totally agree with you that the beauty of HW is that we can
open up to each other and learn both sides of this issue. I do envy those spouses, of those of you who are BP and are working so hard to be responsible and connect the dots of how, and when, BP is rearing its head in your lives...even when you are stable on meds. Because that means you have conquered a biggy....taking full responsibility about
it. And as a spouse, who's H doesn't directly do that...I can tell you that is a MAJOR step in helping us spouses stay patient, understanding and hang in there. Even if you're not perfect about
it...at least your spouses can say to you..."take a look" or "you are over reacting"...and you would work to step back and see it and master it for the next time. I SO wish my H would. It would help so much for me. Alas...it is simply not the way it is here. So....I must continue to accept what is, and...as I always say...get on with it!
The therapist told us today that, although our youngest son needs testing to confirm it...he believes he is definately ADHD, not BP. That his issues are more impulsivity based. However, he also suspects due to the none stop movement from my daughter - the way she jumps from one thing to the other over and over again in his office when waiting for us during the sessions....she may be as well. SO....YIPPIE...that means (if it proves to be accurate) 3 out of 3 of my kids got hit with something. I am just so overwhelmed by it all right now I can hardly breathe. But, once I get my head around it all - I am sure I will figure out how to manage it.....what other option do I have. I am just so sad at the thought.
Sorry I sound like such a downer. For what it is worth, I have no doubt that how I am feeling right now will improve in time and I (and my family) will be fine. There are still many blessings and I just need to focus on those right now. I will advise myself the same as what I say to many of you ....I need to BREATHE...GIVE MYSELF SPACE....BREATHE some more...and just keep up the one foot in front of the other. HUGS to you all. LFW
Post Edited (loving frustrated wife) : 7/20/2008 1:14:32 AM (GMT-6)