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   Posted 7/17/2008 9:26 AM (GMT -7)   
Ok, I have to vent.  Sorry guys but this is necessary.  I am going crazy, losing my mind!!  I took three Ativan yesterday just to make it through.  As some of you know, I am 27 weeks and on no activity; bedrest.  I can sit in bed, on the couch, on the floor, sit anywhere as long as I don't lift, walk, or basically do anything at all.  Well, we took my daughter to the library yesterday for baby read time.  There were only 8 babies there with their moms but it was loud!!!  And Hot!!  I panicked like crazy.  Had to get out of there.  My daughter wasn't even interested in playing with her friends; she just clung to me and my mom.  Then there is this whole can't do anything.  I know it is necessary to get my baby here safely but I am going nuts.  Exercise use to be my outlet even while pregnant.  Now I have no outlet other than this place.  My dad is driving me nuts too.  He is so self-centered; talks about what other people think of him and how wonderful he is.  He has a cold and we hear about how bad he feels.  He thinks my daughter is a show-and-tell doll.  Has to make her do things for him, perform; "clap your hands" "Give pop-paw a kiss" blah, blah, blah.  My dm is here all day to help take care of my daughter and I love her to death for the help but I need some space, always have needed space and down time for me.  Especially when I don't feel well, like right now.  I cried all day yesterday and some today already.  I have taken Ativan but can only take it three times and day and sometimes I need it more.  Then there is my dh; he is so good to me but lately he has been getting on my nerves too.  He is dying to go to the company picnic in Aug.  Well, I am not allowed to be in the heat, I can't do anything but sit around.  The picnic is outside; it will be hot, hot, hot.  I told him that I just can't go.  He should go and take our daughter if he wants.  But NO, he can't go without me.  He is being selfish right now and he rarely is ever that way.  AND his dad, and mom and her boyfriend are coming Aug. 1st for our daughter's first birthday.  OK, I can't handle that at all.  His dad is staying with us; he talks loud because he can't hear.  His mom and her boyfriend (who talks loud also and gets on my nerves) are staying in a hotel.  They get here Friday and leave Sunday.  I can't cook, clean, nothing.  His mom is a non-stop talker.  I am going to go insane!!!!  I think I already am losing it now.  UUUUGGGG!!  I am a wreck.  I even have the shakes.
Ok, I vented.  Any suggestions on how to handle all of this right now?  I sure need some.  Thanks for listening to me.  Please think of me, pray for me if you pray.  I need all the support I can get right now.  All I do is cry.  I feel so overwhelmed and frustrated.
"I'm not crazy; I'm just a little unwell."  Matchbox Twenty

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   Posted 7/17/2008 9:42 AM (GMT -7)   
I'm so sorry you are going through this right now. I can't even begin to say that I remotely understand how you feel because I don't. I would be going stir crazy as well. I just posted a really cool meditation that might help and I know you can do that in bed. That might help you relax a little bit. You just need to remember that all of the added stress is not good for the baby and some of the things you are stressing about are beyond your control. I would say make a list of things that are controllable and ones that are not. The ones that are not, well then you can't worry about those anymore. the ones that are controllable, then you need to talk to your husband about them (or dad/mom whatever the case may be). This is usually what I do when things get out of control for me.

Sending good vibes, prayers, and energy your way ((((HUGS))))

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   Posted 7/17/2008 1:16 PM (GMT -7)   
Those are some great suggestions azteacher.

You also need to do some other things that you like, missflip. What, besides exercise, makes you happy? What can you do while sitting/ lying? Can you say, get into a tv show that's on DVD now -- like Lost? Or how about a new book? I really recommend the Twilight series. Vampires, but not your usual vampires, and a super-fast read.

It sounds like you're so out of sorts right now that everything is getting on your nerves. That's to be expected and will probably stick around until you're a mommy again and back on your meds full force. (And not bed-bound) As I keep saying -- Give yourself a break. Anyone would feel grouchy in your shoes. I like the idea of writing down what you're thinking. It's an excellent way of getting the feelings out without taking it out on anyone else, or more importantly -- yourself.
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   Posted 7/17/2008 1:59 PM (GMT -7)   
I second the Twilight series. It's SO addicting! Very easy read and you will absolutely not be able to put them down. Trust me. I am not a big reader AT ALL and I could not put these books down.
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