Well, it is Monday morning and I don't feel any better. I feel worse. I am so depressed. It is a beautiful cool day here and I should take my daughter outside but I don't feel like it. I just want to cry. Of course, I can't be by myself here because of the fainting so my mom is always here. I just feel like I have no control in my life right now, none whatsoever. I need some alone time; I have to have alone time and I am not getting any. I would love some time alone with my daughter too but I'm not getting that either. My dh is frustrated right now too. He is working hard doing school audits so he is traveling some then comes home to take care of me and our dd. I feel his frustration at times and that makes me feel worse. I just feel alone and a wreck! I am thinking of asking my ob if we could deliver my son early, like at 36 weeks since babies are considered full-term by then. I already know that he is healthy and a little big for his size already at 31 weeks. So there would be no danger to him now. It sure would help me out. I am lost in depression and crying so much. The 1 mg Ativan just isn't helping to keep me calm anymore. My pdoc upped my Tegretol on Friday but I still feel unstable and fragile.
Hope you have a good day.
"I'm not crazy; I'm just a little unwell." Matchbox Twenty