HI. I am so sorry you are having a rough time. But don't give up. You will find the right man and when you do you will be so happy. You did the right thing by telling him the truth though. It is not your fault that he bolted; it is his problem not yours if he can't handle you being bipolar. Being bipolar has such a negative connection in society and it isn't fair.
The man I was married to at the time I was diagnosed left me for another woman and said that it was because he couldn't handle my "illness" and mood swings. Talk about
being crushed!! I was devastated. I had no idea but when I thought about
it, he wasn't there for me at all. At the time one of my friends was a guy that understood what I was going through. We had been friends for several years (there was a group of us that ran together and worked together). Anyway, we ended up dating and have been married for almost 6 years now and are expecting our second child. He has stood by me through everything - finding the right medications, the ups and downs, all of it. We have a great relationship and I love him very much. He doesn't care that I am bipolar; he loves me just as I am.
I told you this so that you won't give up. You will find someone who loves you for who you are, bipolar and all. Are you in any kind of groups? Like a church group, library group, support group, anything that interests you so that you aren't so lonely?
Hang in there. We are always here for you. Keep us updated.
"I'm not crazy; I'm just a little unwell." Matchbox Twenty