I recently became engaged to a wonderful, spiritual and beautiful woman I've been seeing for over a year. Up until recently we did have some nice times together, but I had resolved we would never be close enough for a partnership.
Recently we did get engaged, a vacation together where we expected to "need our space" turned into a wonderful, loving, and supportive situation. We had wonderful times together, started making plans, and got engaged.
Last week, because she'd not been sleeping and taking care of herself, and the excitement of the engagement - she went into a manic episode, which peaked with a Grand Maul Seizure.
I was completely there for her every step of the way - silliness, rash decisions, nonsense, talking incessantly. I think I got frustrated a few times with her, but just intensely pleaded for her to stop.
It seems that everytime we communicate, she learns a new defense against listening to me.
But a few days ago (4 days ago) things turned worse. She has been screaming at me for hours every night, avoiding me, interrupting me, being physicially (but harmfully) and emotionally (quite harmfully) abusive, and doesn't let me express anything I'm feeling without going into huge guilt trips, or lengthy rambling diatribes about how I don't appreciate her, but every once in a while there is the "you just need to be patient" comment.
After a good night's sleep she is a wonderful person but by the end of the day she is a monster. She used to take Seroquel (300mg) per night along with Cymbalta, but titrated off the Seroquel over 5 months and was without it for almost three before the seizure. Since then they have put her on a minimum dose of Depakote, and 25mg of Seroquel as needed, combined with her Cymbalta.
Worse she is not getting good night's sleep. Started insisting it was because I was in bed with her and sleeping elsewhere in the house (she gets no more sleep than with me), and she obsessively cleans, but it has gotten to the point where she just moves things around for hours, creates "creative displays" of things around the house, and lets the dishes and laundry pile around her, insisting she will help by doing that.
Last night I finally lost my temper after 4 nights of sleep deprivations and a total of 15 hours of constant verbal abuse and screaming from her this week. She is in the midst of diagnosis and treatment so I've been trying to be patient. She left the house last night without her bags (and her key). I can reach her sometimes on the phone, but she won't talk. She sounds awful and I don't know where she is or how she is.
I feel so powerless. I love her very much and still want to share my family with her - but these nightly episodes are destroying our relationship. Can anyone offer me help or solace? I want her back.