Hey everyone. How are you today? I am depressed today. I am frustrated, saddened, powerless, and miserable. I am 34 weeks along and big as an ox; my whole body swells, my stomach stays upset and I constantly feel nauseated and I am to the point that I am always tired and feel bad. I am still fainting quite a bit; I am now whining. Sorry.
It is just that everyone, and I mean everyone, including my dh, gets on my nerves now. Constantly. I can't stand to be around anyone anymore. I just want to crawl into bed and stay there away from everything and eveyone. But I get uncomfortable pretty quick because I am so big and can only sleep for an hour or so before I have to make a bathroom run or my limbs get numb or my back hurts. I have a body pillow that I hug and wrap around and it use to help but now nothing helps.
My dh is always asking what is wrong (because he cares, I know) but well, you know, I am pregnant and I am depressed, etc. I just feel like I am at my whits end here. I just want to scream.
I want my baby to be born healthy and happy but at the same time, I am so ready for this to end. I enjoyed my first pregnancy very much. This time I haven't enjoyed any of it because of all the complications and I don't feel connected to my baby like I did my first one. That is so sad!!
OK, so I have vented and whined enough. I just want to feel better. I don't want to be depressed or feeling sorry for myself. I know it is all situational right now but still...
Thanks for listening, again. Hugs.
"I'm not crazy; I'm just a little unwell." Matchbox Twenty