dear Maggiern: I sit here reading your post and am struck by two truths; one is that it appears your BiPolar Illness is affecting your perspective, as it does, at times, for us all. Also, BiPolar Illness affects our judgement. So, whatever possessed you, making you think you were well enough to work, was an error in judgement, and since you are on Disability for BiPolar as well as other crippling disorders, it is explicable, AND excusable that you made an error in judgement (thinking you were well enough to work). We all get there sometimes, our meds work, we feel better, we believe we are better, therefore we stop taking the meds (an excusable error in judgement attributable to being BiPolar). I assume you have a psychiatrist. He/she needs to write to disability and explain the nature of BiPolar illness, and that you made an error in judgement, thinking you were well enough to work. I did exactly the same thing about two years ago. I thought I was well enough to work, let go of my safety net, couldn't afford my meds, got fired for who knows what, and ended in a pickle. It took a visit with two social workers and a letter from my psychiatrist to sort it out. They may want some kind of "repayment" if you were collecting disability while working, but they usually offer to take it out in small increments. I wish you all the best and try to avoid awfulizing and catastrophic thinking. Today is the day you worried about yesterday. There are two ways to cope with anxiety; complaining and talking about the problem, gives us a temporary fix but the problem remains, or taking action, even if it is only baby steps towards fixing the problem. If you can get a quick appt. with your pdoc, do it. That's all you have to do, for now. If you can't call the crisis line, that's what I did when I was right where you are. I got an appt. with a social worker in two days. She consulted with the psychiatrist and they got a four step plan of action written down, for me. I did exactly what I was told to do. I am doing phenomenally well, right now, as much as we BP's can. We love you because we feel your pain. We are one with you. We are all in this together. Call and make that appointment.
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