I don't know what to do anymore...

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   Posted 11/28/2008 6:04 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi, I have never posted on this forum and I have posted on the Crohn's forum a few times. I am just lost for what I need to do... I had been diagnosed last March 2008 with Crohn's and took Endocort for 3 months and have been on Lialda since then. I have been fighting off depression it seems like since last year. I told my gyno I was having anxiety and she put me on Lexapro. It seemed to help my anxiety but I still had problems getting depressed. It caused me to have night sweats and sweating during the day but it seemed to help me stay calm. I decided to quit taking it about a month ago... I did this before too and now i feel like I am messed up bc I went on that stuff in the first place. I get so angry, so angry that my eyes blur and I can't see. I start yelling and screaming for no reason and my poor hubby ends up taking the brunt of it. He doesn't deserve it and he always tries to clam me down. I get so scared of myself and my mind bc I get so angry... and then other days I feel perfectly normal... And then I cry for no reason and go in b/w not being able to sleep with my body so tired to sleeping alot. I have had issues with my Crohn's and dealing with that and not feeling like a hypochondriac at my doc's.... I just used to be happy with a few sad spells here and there, but now I am unsure of myself and what is going on. I also feel numb most of the time... It is like nothing matters anymore. I still make myself go to work and school and pretend to be ok around other people... but I don't want to be this way and my hubby deserves someone who isn't crazy... i just don't know what to do. Thank you for listening to me babble. I guess I am wondering the difference between depression and being bipolar. I don't really understand all of this, or if it is just probably because of having Crohns. Thanks again.

Post Edited (jar567) : 11/28/2008 8:12:51 PM (GMT-7)

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   Posted 11/29/2008 9:14 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Jar,

I totally understand your confusion and I'm sorry about your emotional rollercoaster right now. You clearly have a lot of anxiety and that can feel really frustrating, especially paired with depression.

Here's a good link that describes what bipolar is. But you really should run it by your doctor -- or to really make yourself feel better, make an appointment with a psychiatrist and have an evaluation. They are the people who are best qualified to differentiate between depression and bipolar. Sometimes there is a fine line, especially when it comes to bipolar II and hypomania.


Hope this helps,
Co-Moderator, Bipolar Forum
Bipolar II

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   Posted 11/29/2008 4:16 PM (GMT -7)   
Thank you Serafena, I just felt silly and didn't know who or what doctor I should see. I will check on finding one and go from there. Thank you again

Ne Ne
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   Posted 12/1/2008 8:35 AM (GMT -7)   
jar567, I think you might need to talk to a therapist and maybe get on something different. I to like you have crohns, and just found out I'm bipolar. I was having a hard time dealing with the crohns, and the doctors here where I live. I made up my mind I had to get control of something in my life so I started seeing a therapist, and was put on pristiq. Its new but it helps with depression and anxiety. I find it hard to deal with the crohns and my emotions all the time. I haven't had crohns very long ether but most of the people I've talked to on the crohns forum have problems with depression. Just the thoughts of dealing with a chronic disease is hard to handle. You have it better than some like me, I lost my job because of the crohns. For almost two and half years I did not leave my home unless it was to go to the doctor because of the D. It was about to drive me nuts, in some ways I lost myself, but like you I was feeling like a hypochondriac,but now I have the crohns somewhat under control by going to my GI and complaining a lot, I've been able to get out more but, I still have to deal with the bipolar, I find coming here even if I don't say anything I read from both forums and I don't feel so alone. And if I have a question I can get some help. My GI and my therapist both know I come here to HealingWell and they think its great. My GI told me if I find something that works for someone else that could help he'll let me try it. And coming hear I find you can say things that people in my own family don't understand because there not in my shoes, a lot here are. And here you can wine or say how you feel and know one will judge you.

Dawn turn yeah
49 Female
Dx June 07 Crohn's take asacol 2x3 a day ,lotrel for HBP , omeprezole for stomach , potassium , one a day crohn's & colitis therapy , calcium & Vit D , lomotil for lose stools , tramadol for pain , started humira in Feb 08 on 1 shot a week, vit-B 12 shots , crestor,
Dx Bipolar May 08

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   Posted 12/1/2008 1:08 PM (GMT -7)   
Thank you Ne Ne, I am going to try and make an appt soon, I called my regular doc to see what they thought and am waiting to hear back. I am lucky with my Crohns as in it is under control and only have a few problems here and there. I am able to go to school and work, and it doesn't really keep me at home. I just have been battling being depressed for the last 2 years and it just seems to get to the extreme sometimes and then I am fine other days.. I don't really understand how or why the Crohn's affects my mood... I just know I can barely make it through the day for being upset, sad, or frustrated for no reason at all... Thank you for your advice and thoughts, it really helps to come here and express my thoughts without someone judging me or saying I am a hypochondriac. I am glad you have been able to get out more and it can get depressing being at home all the time. I get bad about doing that too. Thank you again for your reply, I appreciate it so much and all the help!
Dx Crohn's March '08, Lialda 2 pills 2x day

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