Well let me start. When i finally realiized there was a problem i had allready had an affair, my marriage was in the gutter, and i had taken down a street thug who got 3 slash's to my face with a knife before i landed a roundhouse that knocked him cold. I wanted to die, i wanted to be rid of all the pain and torment it faced every day, i just wanted that huge weight lifted.
Well i got help, got on abilify (15mg) but might be switching to gedone? or depacoat? to help relieve the restlessness i get on the meds. That being the worse side effect i get, i feel lucky.
Since i got help and continue to get help i feel so much better. My wife and i have experienced a rebirth of love and romance going on 3 months now. I no longer stress about money anymore and many of the old things that would set me off no longer do it.
I sometimes miss my "highs" however i remember the lows and that keeps me on the meds another day.
ALl in all my life has be vastly improved because i accepted who i was and decided to get help. I had no choice in how i was born, however i have a choice on how i live my life. I have chosen to face this thing head on, and with the help of the medication, have at least battled it to a draw.
So i want to hear other success stories, be proud of your fight, pat yourself on the back. You are fighting a monster that normal people could never understand, so stand up and take a bow. You all deserve it.