I'm sorry I wasn't on last night, yankeepeaches. I can totally believe the prospect of the outpatient program is overwhelming. Just try and keep in mind it's only for 6 weeks and you will feel better afterwards. Don't throw in the towel now, when you're just about
to get things under control. You're lacking hope, but you've just gotten a new diagnosis, which is scary. You need to hang in there, try and go through with it, and see how it goes. Ít may be just the thing you need to give you a new perspective. At the very least you'll learn some new coping techniques, which can't hurt.
Is your husband being supportive? He's really the only one who matters. You can thank everyone else for their input, but you're absolutely right, they have no idea what you're going through. You and he are the ones who have to make the decisions.
You really will be okay. Hang in there. We absolutely are always here for you.
SerafenaCo-Moderator, Bipolar ForumBipolar II