Yes, a warm welcome to the board.
I've found this to be a wonderful place for support and insight from people who understand! Doesn't it feel isolating something being married to a BP husband? I know I feel that way. It's not that I am ashamed or embarrassed to talk to others about
it, it's just that I am more of a private person and feel this is our family's business and don't feel many would truly understand. I also don't want people judging my husband or our family, and unfortunately many people are that way.
I love my husband deeply and we've been married 13 yrs with 2 young children. He is on/off with his moods frequently it seems, and he is on medications as well. I get very tired and upset of his hurtful rants and him blaming his own problems on me, or blaming me for being the one with the problem when I've finally had enough and get angry myself! I've considered leaving many times, so much so that he is convinced I really want out of the marriage, when I have been fighting FOR the marriage for years since his diagnosis.
I am still hazy about what he means when he says all the hurtful stuff to me. I don't even know what to believe anymore.
It seems we've been on an up/down rollercoaster for years.
It helps tremendously to talk with others who can relate.
Keep in touch with us and take good care,