I'm seeking advice and or help from anyone that might be dealing with similar episodes as me.
My whole life I've always been really high(emotionally) or really low, with a happy medium in between. But for the last month or so I am up, down, up, down and have uncontrollable fits of rage- where I end up screaming, cursing, throwing things, or plopping myself angrily and dramatically on the couch or bed (where I then sit and scowl trying to calm myself down.)
Now I have a 1 year old baby girl that is wanting to test mommy's tolerance all day. Which I am usually understanding and passive at her attempts to get her way. She is just a baby!
But for some reason she isn't safe from my short fuse either. My episodes aren't so severe with her but I still catch myself huffing and puffing and growling under my breath or even throwing my hands up shaking my head and walking out the room.
But when it comes to my freak outs around my husband... Uh oh. I will scream, throw, storm off, curse, grunt, stomp, roll my eyes, ect...
He does all he can to help me, ease my tension, fix what set me off to begin with ect.. But I still flip out and get stuck in this foul mood.
Where I'm stuck in this dark part of myself and nothing gets me out. Even if the reason I got angry has been resolved and life should be perfect again... I can't shake the anger I explode randomly.
Anyone know what might be going on with me? I need to fix this before I explode!!!