I'm just so confused.
I know that I'm in potential danger but at the same time he isn't home. He is still at the psych ward. The guy that called me said that it's good he can talk about
it because it means he is asking for help. If he was keeping it to himself and just giving all the "right" answers then I should be really worried b/c it would mean that he plans to act on his thoughts and doesn't want anyone to know. I talked to him tonight and asked him how he's doing. They put him on Seroquel and he says although he feels better knowing that me and the kids are safe, he's really confused about
the thoughts he's having. Why he's having them and where they are coming from. He said that he would never EVER willingly act on them and wants to get help to make them go away.
My mom said that it sounds like he has a hate-on for women. Maybe because his mom is such a B**** and seems to not give 2 craps about
him. I'm sure she does love him in her own way but she sure can be a cold one. And since I'm the closest to him, I'd be the one to get the brunt of his anger when/if he ever snapped. I do see this and I do understand but i'm really having a tough time accepting it.
How can this man that I married that loves me and I love him, ever hurt me and the kids? I don't understand. I'm not jumping on the divorce train just yet as I feel as long as he is seeking help, there is hope. He does need some serious psychiatric help and thank God he's in the right place right now!
From the moment
From the moment i saw you, I wanted to meet you
From the moment i met you, I wanted to know you
From the moment i knew you, I was in love with you
From the moment i loved you, I wanted to share my life with you
and from that moment to this moment and for the moments to come I will love you with all my heart.