Thanks for the reply. Yeah I know it is usually a female thing, or a human thing for that matter, I know I even get feeling bad about myself sometimes. I know I'm no blue ribbon hog, but I don't dwell on it or beat myself up over it. Like I said, just the fact that it all gets blamed on me is what is so curious about the whole thing. I guess it is just the fact that I am the man in her life & men are the root of all evil. The thing about it is though, is that I dread watching tv with her sometimes, a sitcom where someone cheats, commercial with bikini clad women, movie with a nude scene, a 1800chat commercial, any of these things can set off an episode. The insecurities are so bad that they make a peacful existance so hard sometimes. I have already accepted a long time ago that this will not go away. What I don't understand though is that she makes herself so miserable about these things, but doesn't try to do anything about it. She has a treadmill, ab slider, excercise trampoline & lord knows what other kind of excersise stuff but never uses it. I know that sounds like typical male buttholishness, but it really isn't. I honestly do not care about her weight, I love her now, just like I loved her before, but like I said I don't understand how you can be that "miserable" & not try to change the thing that is making you that way. I am one of half the country that always says I'm gonna get in shape & start excersising & blah blah blah & never does, but I'm not always going on about how much I hate myself either.
Not trying to rant, just trying to understand.
"The struggles make you stronger, and the changes make you wise, and happiness has it's own way of taking it's sweet time.
Gary Allan- From "Life Ain't Always Beutiful"