New Topic Post Reply Printable Version
[ << Previous Thread | Next Thread >> ]

New Member

Date Joined Jul 2004
Total Posts : 3
   Posted 7/22/2004 7:38 PM (GMT -7)   
Hello everyone:
I am new to this forum. I was dx with BP nearly ten years ago close to my 51st birthday. I had experienced mood swings most of my life and never stayed with a job more than a few years. I had never been treated or hospitalized for mental illness before that time. 
It has taken me a few years to accept the stigma of mental illness and face my denial. Over time my medication has stabelized my mood swings and given me a new outlook on life. I entered college shortly after my dx for BP and will graduate this summer. 
I still have trouble at times dealing with my guilt for things in my past and the loneliness that so often is a part of this illness, but I have begun to reach out to find others like me who have an understnding of what it is like living with mental illness. 
Thank You for reading this tongue   

Regular Member

Date Joined Mar 2004
Total Posts : 133
   Posted 7/23/2004 3:55 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi EZ and welcome to the boards.  First off, you have no reason to feel guilty for things you did in the past.  The past is the past and there is no changing what we used to do.  Before I was dx at age 37, I loved the highs but along with that came the hurting of family and friends for most of the things I did.  Since my dx I have had to appologize to alot of people.  Most accepted my appology, which I am truly thankful, and the few who did not accept the appology I have found were not my true friend as I thought they were, so I moved on.

As far as bp being a "mental illness" I refer to it as a chemical imbalance.  I am not ashamed of what I have, it's not like it was something I went out and got on purpose.  It came to me.  Looking back all the way to my early teenage years I can see the pattern of the imbalance as clear as day, but again I can't change the past.

Look ahead to the future it's a whole different way of life than we are used to and the future is what we do with it now.  In 10 years are you still going to say during the last 10 years I have hurt so many people or will you be able to say those last 10 years are the best I can remember?

Anyway I could keep rampling on but won't.  So go out and have fun with no regrets.  And congrats on completing college, that in its self in one huge jump in the right direction.  Use what you learned and have a great life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




"The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best
of everything; they just make the most of everything
that comes along their way!!"

New Member

Date Joined Jul 2004
Total Posts : 3
   Posted 7/26/2004 12:00 AM (GMT -7)   
Phyllis, I want to thank you for your words of wisdom. I am thankful that my medications have given me the chance to live a new life. You are so right about the term "chemical imbalance." I will use it. You made me stop and think about the next ten years of my life. Indeed, they have the potential to be among the best of times.

Thank You,

New Member

Date Joined Aug 2004
Total Posts : 3
   Posted 8/21/2004 10:17 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Charlie: God bless you for saying many of the things I am feeling now. I am new to this, too, having not been diagnosed until I was 52. I wish you happiness with your new college degree. How proud you must be!

New Member

Date Joined Aug 2004
Total Posts : 10
   Posted 8/23/2004 5:53 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi EZ,
what meds are you on? I have not been dx with bipolar diease yet, but I know that I do have it.
After reading all the posts, it's like reading my own symptoms. Welcome aboard.
New Topic Post Reply Printable Version
Forum Information
Currently it is Wednesday, December 13, 2017 10:16 AM (GMT -7)
There are a total of 2,904,850 posts in 318,803 threads.
View Active Threads

Who's Online
This forum has 158180 registered members. Please welcome our newest member, Laubeb.
313 Guest(s), 17 Registered Member(s) are currently online.  Details
momto2boys, Nab, notsosicklygirl, ketogirl, Aset28, hammer8, nofistulas, Fasso, Girlie, Lynnwood, Szabo246, pitmom, jackinthebox, Tim Tam, k07, Tall Allen, iPoop