I wrote a whole book to you, and my internet went down, and I lost it. Let's see if I can abbreviate it this time.
My experience: Whenever I cycled and got that irritable, can't stand the skin I'm in feeling, I often pushed my husband. I started fights, I told him I was leaving, I accused him of not loving me, and so on and so forth. I was/and still am a great manipulator, and would turn things so he looked wrong no matter what. When I did leave, I convinced myself I had reason to. But I was always back within a few hours, a couple times, a few days. If he agreed with me that this should just end, I would come completely unglued. I would beg him for another chance, and make promises.
We have been together now for 22 years. He is my rock, my best friend. We have learned coping mechanisms, and that, along with better control over the bp has saved our marriage. He has learned certain ways of responding to me when he sees the mania coming. I have also learned to heed his reaction, and determine if what I am about
to start a huge fight about
is really what is bothering me.
Sometimes I catch myself becoming manic, and have learned to go to him as soon as I feel it, and tell him it is happening. We work together on it. But that is something that grew out of time, and help with meds. The road is rough, but if you love her, and you show that you do, stick it out with her. Teach yourself what things you say, what circumstances you are in, what time of day seems to set her off more. My husband will gently remind me late at night when I am about
to lose it, that I need to just go to bed. Being overly tired is one of my triggers.
OK, so I wrote another book.
Keep posting. Keep asking questions. Remember, the only stupid question is the one you don't ask.
Hang in there.
Fibromyalgia, Bipolar II, Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, Anxiety, Arthritis, High Blood Pressure, etc.