Look on line for support groups in your area and go to one, and then ask questions about who can you contact to get into someone faster, they have a lot of inside information. Another thing you can do is call a local hospital and talk to someone in their mental health unit, they may have a contact for you to get a doctor ASAP, also call the number on your insurance card for mental health tell them you need help and can't go into a hospital maybe they will get you to someone to help. Last never say never when it comes to suicidal thoughts, they sometimes can override your thought process. Remember Post Partum Depression can also be playing a big part in this. Hang in there and please post if you need to talk, also write this number down just in case.