I have NEVER had mood changes this fast before. I have been dealing with these mood swings since I was around 11 or 12 years old, I am now 25, and they have either lasted a couple of days or weeks, maybe a month or two a couple of times. Right now, I am going through what people as describe as a "manic" mood, but also having the depression AT THE SAME TIME. Also, my moods have been changing within hours...I have no clue what's going on, It has never been this bad. My body and mind are so drained. Has anyone does this stuff? I wish it was possible to live without your brain for a bit, I just need a break from being "me". I'm really wanting to drink right now, but I know that will just make it worse, plus all the liquor stores are all ready closed.
Ok, I've been reading about different things and I'm either going through a mixed state , or rapid cycling, or going through Ultradian, which is ultra rapid cycling. I'm not a stupid person and I'm not weak...I just don't understand why this is happening now. I'm having enough trouble trying to deal with myself right now...then you throw in there a seven year old, a new born, and a somewhat lazy, selfish husband, who is rarely home, and a home to take care of, along with having no family around to help out...I'm just having trouble dealing with all this. I'm trying to read more, so that I understand a little better what is going on with me, but it's not really doing much to help me understand why this is all going on. I don't know what to do. Nothing that I'm doing is helping.