Serafena, You are not alone in your feelings of overwhelm at ALL.
First, my condolences on your cat. Losing a pet is NEVER easy. I know you'll miss her/him.
Second, I am beginning to have a theory about
something. So I'll put it out to you and see what you think.... I think our world right now has a lot of despair in it with the economy. EVERYONE I know is feeling the heat. I think in some ways we are all spending our time feeling scared ALL the time. It is a feeling we can't put down. Then, when we allow ourselves to REALLY think about
what it all means, we get completely overwhelmed because it feels SO big (like not being able to follow what the financial guy was saying – sounds simple enough…but the issue is so big and scary our mind just wants to run away from what feels like the pending disaster). It feels like we are suddenly against this tidal wave and we feel it pressing down on us, so we just shut off. A lot of feeling of "what's the point, it is going to happen no matter what we do, so just sit down and feel the loss now." ONLY....it really hasn't fully happened yet...but we know it is trying to come at us. So my theory is this, IF we spend enough time in this state, it can mimic levels of depression. Only, it’s an external source creating it, vs. a chemical thing. AND it is a situation that is real, and we are not “creating it”. My thought is that MANY people went through this during the great depression as they watched their lives, livelihood & finances disappear. After WWII...etc. Now it is our generations version of it and it is scary. Did any of that just make sense? So, I'm not saying a med adjustment isn't in order, just that some of it is really also dealing in some BIG issues outside yourself and it IS scary. But, there is solace in knowing it is a COLLECTIVE experience. I know I am working my behind off and month to month don’t know if we’ll make it, and I am SCARED ALL THE TIME. I think that is part of the shut down feeling I have been having inside, because whenever I ask myself the "why", the answer keeps saying stuff about
what I am so scared and overwhelmed about
...and it is always includes and involves this financial stuff. And knowing that is helping to calm me a bit to it all. Anyway, hope some of that may help.
Hugs to you….HANG IN THERE….LFW
Post Edited (loving frustrated wife) : 6/9/2009 10:43:48 PM (GMT-6)