Well, I really screwed up this time! I had been in a manic mood for a couple of days, but Saturday was my peak. I went "crazy" on my husband and made my life so much harder then it already was. To make a long story short, the cops were called and I was charged with assault/battery of an officer, that's a class 6 felony. I was in jail all week-end with no bail and I'm out now on $2,000 bail. Apparently my daughter witnessed everything...I don't remember any of it. While I was at the jail, they said my blood alcohol level was not that high, so apparently the memory loss is not because of the alcohol that I consumed...my husband said he knows I had four shots of Tequila. I have gotten so angry before that i don't remember what happened, but I've never lost control like that in front of my kids. Because of the fact that alcohol was involved I have to go to court ordered alcohol classes and AA meetings and anger management classes and go through random UA's. I know I'm bi-polar, going through post-partem depression, have anxiety issues, getting used to new meds, and trying to take care of my family right now, but this is just insane. My daughter was screaming for me to stop and crying and I have no memory of it what so ever.... I think that's the hardest part about any of this, knowing what she saw and had to go through, my son is only two months, so he won't remember. Also, knowing some of the things i said to my husband, which were lies, but they were still said. It takes a lot to make him cry and my parents said he was balling when he called them. His family hates me right now and wants him to leave me and take the kids.....I don't even remember what started everything...I'm so scared that they're going to make me spend more time in jail...This is the first time I have ever been in trouble with the law, but it's a serious offense...especially to the officers here in Virginia. I was told I pushed one officer and kicked another one, which sent him across the room. They had to "hog" tie me and it took six officers and EMT's to take me down. I am only 5'3 and 130 pounds...I don't understand how I could get that mad and do that to any one, this has NEVER happened this bad before. I'm just so ashamed right now and I don't know how to make it up to anyone.