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   Posted 6/22/2009 6:25 PM (GMT -7)   
I am not new here I just have not have internet access.
I have Bipolar 1 and have been diagnosed since 2006 and I am 24. I have had problems since I was 15 though. I have been married for nearly 6 years and I have 1 beautiful daughter. In January of this year I was fired from my job in the middle of a med change from depakote to lithium. I tried to get my unemployment benefits which I was denied then went through a very depressing appeal which was also denied. My employer lied and said they had no idea I had bipolar. So from Jan - Mar I was in the worst depressed period. My weight dropped to 98lbs and I only weigh 103. I was on Remeron, lithium, depakote, klonopin, and ambien. I lost my insurance at the time I got fired so I wasn't able to see a doctor. We moved from Texas to Colorado recently and now I am seeking help. My problem is the nightmares from getting fired. The feeling of wanting to cry alllll the time. My husband is my only support and he doesn't understand the mixed and quickly changing moods.
I have an appointment to see about social security disability. I am just worried because I feel guilty now I was in the hotel industry and loved it but things have gotten so bad some days I don't wanna leave the house. Right now the only med I am taking is Klonopin 1mg. I have eczema on my hands, arms and sometimes my legs. It goes and then when it comes its soooo red and drives me crazy. My appointment for disability is this Friday and I have been told I will be denied due to my age and the fact I don't have a physical problem. I have enough work credits and am currently seeking help.
I yelled at the Mcdonalds manager today because she didn't explain her self. My husband was there and cleared that up. I am just sooo tired of telling people I have bipolar because of the "oh its just in your head" or getting the dirty looks. I only weigh 100 now and people are scared of me! I just don't what to think or do will someone please help me.
Thanks for your time

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   Posted 6/23/2009 8:25 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Peachlove,

Welcome back.

I'm sorry to hear you're having such a hard time. I'm told the key to SSDI is to have a good paper trail. Get medical records from all the psychiatrists and doctors you've ever seen about your mental disorders, to prove that you have a long term problem. Get a letter from your current doctor explaining why you are unfit to work.

I've also been told that almost everyone gets denied the first time through but have better luck in the appeals process, so good luck with that.

It sounds like you're still having pretty acute mood swings. When was the last time you saw your doc?

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   Posted 6/24/2009 6:05 PM (GMT -7)   
The last time I saw a psychiatrist was Jan. 2. 2009 in Austin, TX. I am now in Colorado and due to no income and no insurance I have to go to a behavioral health and substance abuse place. I am not liking it much because I do smoke pot occasionally and it helps but they don't believe me. They say it makes things worse. I am a lot calmer though. I am suppose to see some kind of doctor from the behavioral health place on the 7th of next month. The anxiety has gotten worse as well as the nightmares. Everything got worse basically when I lost my job and couldn't get get my unemployment because my employer lied to the appeals officer. I didn't file my complaint with the EEOC in time because I was in a deep depression for over a month in which I don't remember much of.
My appointment with the social security office is this friday so I hope all goes well. I have been preparing my self for the denial tis why I have contacted Allsup. I have a 4 year old little girl and I wanted her to see her mother as someone who worked and did things like everyone else. But what she sees is something much different.

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   Posted 6/25/2009 11:22 AM (GMT -7)   
hi. i pray everything will go your way at the appeal. i have a daughter who is now 19. she had a normal very active mom until she was about 8. then i started getting sick. i did pretty well on meds. until she was about 13. then i really got sick! also, i was diagnosed with bi-polar after a pyschotic episode. she was 14 at the time. i often say she had a "bait and switch" mother. she had 1 kind of mom for part of her life and then another kind later. i know sometimes things were really hard for her. sometimes she was even angry with me. (really she was angry with my illness). the positive that came from this is that my daughter has the biggest heart of anyone i know. she is understanding and helpful to people in need. among her friends she is the 1 they all go to when they need a sympathetic shoulder. she just finished her 1st year of college and made all a's. i wish she hadnt had to go through everything she had to because of me, but i believe with all my heart thats why she is such a special young woman. please remember this when you think of your own daughter. she will be okay.
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