Dealing with BP is exhausting, it's hard, it's a struggle and it's a lot easier to just ignore it. I've seen my husband do exactly what you are thinking of doing.
I can't tell you how many times in the past four years I've heard the following:
"The doctors don't know what they are talking about."
"I can take care of it myself."
"It's just everyone else stressing me out."
Well, guess what? The doctors DO know what they are talking about, you CAN'T take care of it yourself, you need to work on HOW to deal with stress and NO ONE is "fine."
My husband was basically non-compliant with his meds for almost 20 years (he was diagnosed at about 18 years old). And not only did his not accepting the condition hurt him, but it hurt those who love him most. He had yet another manic episode at the end of April and I just told him never to come home. It was the hardest thing I ever did. He was eventually involuntarily hospitalized a few days later but we didn't visit him for 8 days, and that was only to have a meeting with him, me, his mom, his pdoc and two social workers. The meeting was like a mini intervention but I'm hoping that it made him finally see that there is nothing wrong with being diagnosed with BP so long as you manage it.
For almost the past three months he has been compliant with his meds and sees a therapist and pdoc. He now says that he is "on the regiment" and doing it for me. I tell him that I am so proud of him but he should do it for himself not me. But honestly I don't care too much about why he's compliant (for me, his mom, himself), just so long as he is because I don't want him to destroy himself - which is the path he was on. And we are all so incredibly happy to have the man that we know and love back in our lives and hopefully forever.
So, after my long post, I want you to know that there is a reason this board exists - WE NEED IT! Like Serafena, I enjoy having you around. You may not know it, but you are helping others who have BP or live with someone who has BP. If you don't like your meds or feel something isn't right, talk to your doctor. DON'T go off your meds or stop seeing a therapist/pdoc.
Please keep posting and trying to manage your BP. Your family and friends will appreciate it more than you know - and one day you will too.